Death đź’€ : Lux died once. She had to become a vampire. She doesn't remember a lot of what led her to willingly choose death, but she remembers her despair and the sensation of being trapped in a situation that was worse than death. She embraced vampiredom with grace and thought nothing of immortality for centuries. Yet, after 1000 years as a vampire, it started to wear her down. Everything became meaningless; her life felt meaningless. Then she fell in love with Paolo, her Italian sculptor in the Renaissance. She felt alive again, and she tried to live the moment to its fullest, given his fragile nature as a human. His death devastated her to the point that she tried to step into the sun and was saved by her Sire and "sibling". She recovered from her heartbreak and returned to her life, thinking that it was meaningless to live for this long for basically no purpose. Since meeting Jake, however, Lust wants to die. She wants to experience life with him, give it meaning, and then die afterwards when he's old and about to die. She wants him to become her last. But at the same time, she's also not ready to die and would fight for her life. It's complicated with her. complicated.
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Tuesday, May 24, 2022
headcanon: Death
B: Bäahal doesn’t want to die anymore. At the beginning of the Long Night, she wanted to die an honorable death and was ready to die for her sister. Her encounter with Jaime changed the way she perceived death. She grew out of her death-seeking wish and became more and more grounded. She fell in love with Jaime and now doesn’t want to die or to let him die. She’s been traumatized by Death. (her mother, Viserion, etc..) and she doesn’t want to lose anyone else.
M! Witch: She is a healer. Despite the traumas, she had to face (most likely the slaughter of her family, and the death of her coven), Mary wants to heal others. Her immortality actually changed her perspective on life and death. Life is even more precious to her, and she would do her best to protect the living and honor the dead. She doesn’t want Klaus to die, perhaps even more than she expected to feel. Klaus is her kin, and she would fight for him.
M: Mary doesn’t want to die. She doesn’t want any of the people she loves, to die. She isn’t a suicidal character. However, people around her tend to die and she’s very worried about it. She lost her child at birth; she lost her husband to murder, and she doesn’t want to lose Tommy (and the rest of his family). John’s death truly hurt her, and she hasn’t recovered from it just yet.
modern Bäahal never wanted to die. however, she sometimes felt she shouldn't have existed because her life caused trouble. (she is changing that way of thinking thanks to both Jaime and Kyra)
V: Viserys was a daredevil. He’d usually try to live an extreme life, walking a fine line between life and death. He wanted to numb his pain but indulged in very extreme activities. The death of his mother, father, and brother did a number on him and he doesn’t want to lose anyone else. Since meeting Kyra, he’s trying to sober up and stop actively trying to kill himself with his dangerous lifestyle.
Wednesday, March 10, 2021
GoT (regular) : Hypothetical future (the bad one)
GoT (regular) : Hypothetical future (the bad one)
A/N : I would not want these two to be denied. I would not be able to stand it but this is mostly how I imagine things to be if Dany rejects them. Theme song : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-vwBf9he8lY
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Two decades into a future where Dany denied her sister her union with Jaime Lannister.
Brienne of Tarth was looking for the silver princess at the spots she was known to visit. After two decades at the service of the people, princess Bäahal had decided to stay at King's Landing. Through one of her journeys, she'd suffered a bad fall, which forced her to walk with a cane and stop horse-riding altogether. With no possibility to escape the walls of the Red Keep, the princess was forced to find a way to make herself useful, devoting herself to helping those in need. She made sure to be at her sister's service, accepting any request but one: To get married. After Daenerys made it clear that she didn't bless her union to Jaime Lannister, the pair were often separated unless the princess needed protection. They managed to lure out the conspirators and judge them openly, sentencing them for their High Treason against the crown. Jaime got to ensure the princess' protection but only at a distance. They were allowed to talk to each other, even share a lunch or have dinner together but that was the most they could do.
Soon after it was asked for Bäahal to not pursue any romantic relationship to the knight, she started to wear red whenever he was around, finding ways to let him know that her feelings for him did not die and he made sure to let her know through their personal code, that he was still loving her and protecting him however he could. They became star-crossed lovers, forever forced to love the other from afar, forever unable to touch each other in ways no other could. Bäahal promised Kyra she would protect the family and she kept her word, ensuring the safety of the knight and making sure nobody could suspect, they loved each other. Yet, to each other, their commitment became only more intense and they found new ways to care for the other. It simply became something that couldn't be said. Bäahal remained beautiful, a sight to behold, but her face was sad and she grew quiet over the years whenever she wasn't required to speak. Daenerys married Jon Targaryen, privately first before it became public, much to the old noble's rejection of such union. So she was focused on them and the people, forgetting as time went by that the decision she took that day would seal the fate of two souls.
Jaime illustrated himself over the years, earning the respect of the Royal family. He was a brilliant Knight, a cunning chief of the Lannister army and he led many battles in the name of the Queen. His story was known by the people, even the ever sordid secret of his oathbreaking. Bäahal promised she would at least let people know what he sacrificed for them, even if that didn't rehabilitate him fully, at least they knew what he did. Brienne couldn't find the princess who was not in her usual spots. She wasn't walking at the beautiful garden of the Red Keep nor was she watching the dragons at their den's. She simply was in the kitchen, making her own soup much to the surprise of the housemaids who watched her do.
Brienne went to find the Queen to deliver the bad news, her face pale as a ghost as she related the events she'd just witnessed. Tyrion fell apart at that moment, although he kept his dignity and simply asked permission to retire to the garden for a moment. Daenerys realized she needed to see Bäahal and asked about her whereabouts. When it was said that the princess was cutting potatoes for her soup, the queen decided to find her. Bäahal, as always careful, was taking her time preparing her lunch as she sometimes liked to do. She found that it was relaxing to do things by herself, like when she was still a kid and her mother was teaching her how to cook, prior to being abducted again. The room quickly cleared and she recognized the footsteps of her sister.
« You found me, Dany. I thought you would be busy with your counsel. »
« I had to see you. Brienne of Tarth just came back and... » She stopped talking to look at her as she was still cutting her potatoes quietly.
« To have you rush into the kitchen and have the room cleared...I guess the news is important. » -She said, her voice still calm although the hand holding the knife was still trembling-
« Bäahal... I guess this is too late to say that I am... »
« He was a good man, you know, Dany? » She started out with a soft voice. Still cutting her vegetable- « I have seen it from the moment we met. There was a sparkle in his eyes, something fierce that was telling me that he could be trusted. He had honor... he always had honor, even when he killed our father. I was never mad at him for saving these people. » Her voice let escape a sob that tugged at the queen's heart. « I remember how foolish I was to ever want to die during the long night. I thought that my whole life would only have meaning if I sacrificed it for you. Oh, I was ready to do so, but he told me I could try and live. Have a full life, be happy...he had his own way to make my blood boil but he saved my life on that day. » She then shrugged and looked at her hands. « We saved each other, Dany. We saved each other and I was aware that our love was not wanted in this life. I kept praying that in the next one we'd be happier but this isn't exactly how it works, right? There is no other life but the one we had. » She said still cutting.
Daenerys noticed that she was now cutting the air, traumatized by her own words as she had understood that Jaime had died and Daenerys felt sorry for the way she treated this relationship. The queen couldn't help but let her tears roll down on her cheeks as she listened to her sister talk about her deceased lover. She realized that it wasn't just some puppy love, nor was it meant to disappear as fast as it had appeared. It was real, it was strong and even in a moment like this, when she could have been screaming her heart out and trying to eventually, join him in death, she talked about what he did when he was alive.
« My golden lion was... » -She trailed off before she noticed her hand and said in an unusual tone « Oh, look at me, I'm making a mess! I've been cutting the air. » She then chuckled and that was Daenerys' cue to come closer to her sister as she had put the knife down and had turned around to look at her with tears rolling down her cheeks. « He's gone...Dany...I would never see his face anymore.. he's gone... » Then the tears became streams and the streams became a torrent and she screamed a heart-wrecking scream that tore the heart of the queen. She was sobbing so hard that she clung to her sister. The knight was dead and along with him, a piece of her heart, and all that the queen could do was to witness it all.
-TBC-
Friday, July 20, 2018
Of death
Wednesday, July 11, 2018
chronicles of Lux and Tenebrae: Remembering
Saturday, May 26, 2018
Chronicles of Lux and Tenebrae: The End Realm: part 5: Confrontational
Friday, April 13, 2018
Chronicles of Lux and Tenebrae: Clash on the Big Bridge.
The threat was contained by Tenebrae still was unresponsive. Lux's voice reached out to him but he wasn't listening. It was unsettling for the amnesiac goddess who needed her savior to return to his usual self. He was standing in the middle of a street filled with dead human bodies, deaths he caused because he unleashed some of his power into the human realm. He was standing, his eyes turned into black pools, his hair longer than usual, his human clothes turned into his black and blue armor from the End Realm. He even had a crown made of blue light above his head, flashing brightly and blinding surviving humans. It was at this exact moment that Death arrived, a little too late to prevent his son from going berserk and endangering human lives. Lux was still shaking from head to toe from her recent ordeal. She almost died, her weakened body and soul would have been swallowed whole by the super-demon and Life's efforts to keep her daughter alive would have been in vain. It scared her, the realization that she could have met her end with just a snap of a pair of fingers. Yet, Having Death standing next to her was even more terrifying. He wasn't wearing a fancy human face, he didn't have his long white hair and pale skin. His face was a skull, his outfit was a heavy black armor with a black hooded cape that covered the top of his skull. At his feet was a black shadow, that, for the one who would look at it, seemed like a portal to the End Realm.
Saturday, April 7, 2018
Chronicles of Lux and Tenebrae : Pandemonium
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One thing the harpies learned when they raised the son of Death: Never anger Tenebrae. Once, when he was just a babe, the young prince was very upset about his father not coming to visit and unconsciously unleashed true horror to the Harpies, to the point that one of them almost died. They managed to calm the boy but decided to do everything in their power to avoid a situation like this one all the while training the kid to use his powers. They discovered he was, indeed, very powerful, so much so that he could stand his own against his own father in a fight that could last millennia. As Lux was walking to Tenebrae's car she felt danger. People around them were fleeing en masse, screaming that there were demons coming their way. There was a simple rule, Deities, demons, and angels wouldn't walk the Earth assuming their true form. Anomalies existed in the form of half-breeds.which existed on both the human plane and the astral plane. There also were those who refused to follow the rule and therefore exposed themselves to mortals.
Lux turned on her heels to warn Tenebrae about the upcoming threat but it was too late. The very reason humans were trying to escape turned out to be a massive demon. Tenebrae was standing tall in front of this monstrosity. It was a giant decaying corpse with a pair of bat wings to match with his disharmonious face. Its flesh was pitch black and seemed to be rotting which could explain the smell. It had long sharp nails and fangs. Lux silver eyes grew wide as she felt some familiarity with the monster. Her fingers started to shake out of frustration because she couldn't recover her memory. Her muscles do remember the gestures she used to have when she fought anomalies with Tenebrae, she still had the urge to draw her sword but couldn't remember how to summon it or if she truly had one. She still had the urge to do something and protect those humans but couldn't move from her spot. Her body was petrified where it stood and Tenebrae quickly understood that. The demon wasn't alone and soon enough they ended up surrounded by a dozen of them. Under any other circumstance, Tenebrae would have found this quite adorable because demons like these were not a threat to him, but he had to deal with a defenseless Lux and her safety trumped everything else.
« What...What are those? » Lux finally managed to say.
« Demons. » Tenebrae quickly jumped closed to her and answered as he took a defensive position.
« I know they are demons... I meant, why are they here? » She said, holding onto his arm.
« They must have been following me since I left the Fortress.stay right behind me, Lux. »
« Tenebrae... I don't understand... »
And neither did he. Why would demons attack « him » specifically? Her divine aura was way too faint to be noticed by demons like these. Tenebrae had walked the Eart long enough to notice the smallest of differences but for the untrained eye, nobody could distinguish Lux from a normal human. Her powers were still locked due to her memory not returning and therefore she was the most vulnerable she'd ever been and the least to be detected by evil creatures. They followed him and while usually, demons would avoid attacking The son of Death, these were out there to get him. He could feel the electricity in the air and goosebumps cover his alabaster skin. He could handle them, as long as Lux stayed behind him, where he could protect her efficiently, he could handle them. He summoned his long sword, a beautiful silver blade, encased in a sculpted black handle that ended in the shape of a skull. The weapon, like any other divine weaponry, was made out of his energy, which meant he could summon as many as he'd like as long as he had the energy to do it. It could cut through anything and usually, the weakest foes would fall if he hit them with it.
The prince started his attack, swinging his sword and cutting the demons in half. 1 down, 2 down, 3 down. The 6th blocked his attack with its claw, proving to be more resistant and stronger than the 5 previous ones. Tenebrae dodged a bite from the demon but got cut by another one who clawed his back. He turned his head and sent him a blast of dark energy, making it disintegrate on impact. It was too easy and he got cocky really fast. While he was slicing and dicing the demons, he didn't notice that a super-demon made its appearance and grabbed Lux in its giant palms.It was huge, as big as a public floor lamp and already it was lifting Lux to its mouth with the intent of eating her. It was her screams that alerted the Prince of the End Realm and had him turn around, only to witness with horror in his eyes that his beloved could have died right there.
« Tenebrae !!!!! »
She screamed! Outstretching her hand towards him in a desperate attempt at holding his hand. She was breathing hyperventilating, her eyes wide open and tears running down her cheeks. Fear was overwhelming the daughter of Life who didn't know better but to cry for help as her memories were still blocked.
« I'm coming! »
Tenebrae replied, sending a blast to the super-demon that didn't even flinch. He looked at his hands, confused as to why it wasn't working but decided to act rather than think. He sent another blast at the creature that started to chuckle as it pulled Lux up, ready to drop her into its mouth. The prince jet black eyes grew wide and he tried to cut through the super-demon which barely felt the blow.
« TENEBRAE !!!! AAHHH !!! AHHH PLEASE! » She kept crying his name, making his heart beat faster than it ever should. He was starting to panic.
As the creature finally positioned Lux the way it wanted, it dropped her abruptly into its giant mouth. The moment slowed down or appeared to be in slow motion as Tenebrae started to have flashbacks of the past. He saw Lux standing next to him, her glaive and shield in her hands. She had tied her hair in a high ponytail that only complimented the high cheekbones of hers. She was wearing a golden attire made of pants and a tank top with light shoes for the training. He remembered her smile as she contemplated the progress she'd made and the glow in her silver eyes as she looked at him excitedly. Then the flashback gave space to reality where she was still falling into the mouth of the monster and it cut back to yet another flashback where they were fighting anomalies together. He could see how gracefully she slew their enemies, how brutal she was too, punching, biting, kicking flesh when she wasn't slicing it with her blade. It seemed like a lifetime away. The flashback gave space to the present where she was still falling, even slower than before and he locked his pitch black eyes upon the silver ones of the goddess. The sight cut back to the last flashback, one where they were kissing and laughing and hiding from the rest of the world. He still remembered the warmth of her hand against his cold one. He still remembered her scent, and the sound of her voice when she couldn't contain her chuckles. It was enough to push him over the edge.
The harpies still remember the day the young prince was angry. He opened a giant portal from where many giant hands and dark matter shaped like tentacles escaped from and grabbed them all. The hands would have pulled all of them if he wasn't calmed down by his guardians and when asked what it was that he did, he simply said that the portal was a dimension inside of him. He didn't use this ability often and nobody truly knew what that meant to him. What that made him be. Was he a portal to another dimension? Was it just an ability to make himself stronger? Were those he absorbed still alive or did he drain their essence? Lux, who was still falling, noticed the giant portal that appeared in front of her and the giant hands forcing their way outside. The humans who couldn't escape started to cry and pray and chant in hopes not to be obliterated by the amount of energy and the monstrosities they were witnessing. Her eyes flashed a light for a brief moment as she kept staring at him.
Tenebrae was angry and desperate. His anger stemmed from his fear of losing Lux for all eternity. He couldn't think straight, had little to no control over this form of his. His shadow had expended, to the portal. His hair grew in length, reaching his waist while his nails became longer and sharper. He was still dressed in a human way but there was a blue crown -made of energy- above his head. He outstretched his hand towards the creature, having the huge pale hands from the portal grab the monster and catch Lux safely. The super-demon started to squirm and claw the hands but there were just so many that it couldn't push them away. Tenebrae was snarling the entire time, relishing in the creatures helplessness. The noise became unbearable for the humans who started to bleed from the eyes and ears. There was a reason supernatural creatures stayed in their astral plane. When exposed to too much divine energy like Tenebrae's, humans couldn't survive, they just died. And they did. As the monster was taken away and thrown into the portal, Lux witnessed the poor humans souls that also were taken away to the portal. As the giant hand that held her put her back on the floor, she held the hems of her dress and watched as everything returned to the portal, giant hands, super-demon and human souls. Tenebrae yanked his head back and kept his arms open wide as if he was savoring -and he was!- the moment.
« Tenebrae... » Lux called but he didn't respond, too engrossed by his dinner. « Tenebrae...The humans... » She looked at the lifeless bodies that were laying on the floor and started to shake. «Tenebrae! Wake up! » She called but he didn't respond to her. « Tenebrae.. please! »
She yelled at him, hoping that it would make Tenebrae snap back into reality but it didn't work. She felt a hand grab her shoulder and looked up. It was Death himself.
-TBC-
Saturday, February 24, 2018
Chronicles of Lux and Tenebrae: A father's burden
Monday, January 29, 2018
Chronicles of Lux and Tenebrae: The mother
Saturday, January 20, 2018
Chronicles of Lux and Tenebrae: The Father
Thursday, October 19, 2017
Her eulogy
Her tears would never heal her. They would never make her pain go away so she did her best to prevent herself from crying or ignore her tears and pretend they weren't there. She did her best to go on with her life, plaster fake smiles on her lips and walk as if she owned the World while in fact, it was breaking down at her feet. There was nothing left inside or maybe too much was there. She did push those feelings deep down, avoiding to feel every single one of them, especially the happy ones. Because what could possibly happen if not being disappointed.They would say she was a piece of work and was definitely too much work for them to handle. They didn't understand her, the peculiar ways of her mind. They didn't even want to.
They would say it was a relief that she died because at least now they could focus on something else. They wouldn't need to spend too much time in her gloomy and depressing company. They wouldn't need to comfort her and cater to her needs anymore. And yet she didn't even tell them what she wanted. She didn't even tell them how much she needed them and how terrible life was for her. So they thought she simply was making it hard for them on purpose. They couldn't possibly know how deeply hurt she truly was. How much of a nightmare her existence felt like. They couldn't know. They wouldn't know.
Her death would be a relief and she expected her eulogy to be the reflection of that. People lining up to express their joy to have gotten rid of her. People lining up to paint a portrait of her she already was aware of. She was a monster and Death took her away. Maybe that would be the last good action she could give. Making herself disappear...
Ah! If only.