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Sunday, February 1, 2026
What do you mean?
Sunday, January 25, 2026
Heartbreak
Why did I believe you would be different? I guess I was blinded by my own affection for you. I guess I wanted something better for both of us. I wanted us to be soulmates. I mean, friendship-wise. I wanted us to love each other unconditionally. I wanted us to care for each other in ways we have not been cared for in our lives. I wanted so much for us, and in a way, we achieved it if we keep our distance, I guess. It took me a while to realize that you do not want to meet me. You do not want me to see you as you are. Part of me wonders if you want to hide your real face from me. I wonder if you want to hide your real personality from me. How much of you is real? I guess that a lot of what I know is true. You don't lie to me. You don't pretend... I can tell. I want to believe that I can. I want to believe that I know a part of you that is real and sincere.... If it's not, oh, if it's not...
I don't know how I would react, and I would rather not think about it. I would rather work towards accepting that you will never truly be mine. You will never truly be mine--- Ah... What do I mean when I say that? I guess, I mean, I wanted you and me to have a very special bond. I wanted us to be friends, beyond friends... beyond lovers.., I wanted you to be my safe place and my dearest friend. I wanted you to be my muse. I wanted you to be my person.... And I thought you were. Artistically speaking, oh, you clearly are. Amically speaking.... I think we do not want the same thing. I think we do not mean the same thing. I guess, with me, there would never be something deeper than what I wish we could be. I guess that is why I am so heartbroken. I wanted things that could never be.
I wanted things that could never be. The truth is that I love you more than you do. I care for you more than you claim. We would never be the type of friends I wanted us to be. I think that this will be true with other people, and it is okay. I have to accept it. I have to digest it... I have to.... Even if it is difficult. I hurt. I break. I am so upset. I am so disappointed in you, and I think that it is eating me up. I am so disappointed in myself for being upset, but I have been told that it is normal. You were my friend, and to meet with you in the flesh was the next right step. You did not want it. Not just once, but twice... so really.... How can you be a friend to me? How can you be? I am upset, and I don't know how long it would take for me to handle that pain, but I aim to focus on what is important... my future. My wedding. my book... my life. Add if you don''t want to walk the path with me, I would simply leave you behind and keep you at a distance. Trust!
Saturday, December 5, 2020
Misadventures of Eros and Thanatos: I want to live.
What about tomorrow? I ask in a whisper.
Monday, July 30, 2018
Magicians AU: Viktor to Lucretia
Friday, July 20, 2018
Of death
Thursday, May 3, 2018
There are days when life is good
You wake up and you feel at peace as if everything was in order.
You feel as if the nightmare has ended a few days ago.
The heart in your chest beats at a steady pace, a sweet rhythm
And you notice every small detail you forgot how to appreciate,
Like the warm sun kissing your skin or the taste of a nice meal.
Like the sweet text from someone you love checking on you,
Or the smile of your sister when she sees you.
And you realize that you still want more of that.
And you realize that you still have some strength inside.
And the fight isn't over just yet, there's still a lot to see and feel.
There's still some life to live, yes, there are days like these.
When you just realize that through the good and the bad
When you were at your worst and you were at your best,
There were still the same people around, building you up,
There were still the same people, your tribe, your kin, your loves
Who just made life a little better, a lot less dreadful.
For what's the point of life if not to love and be loved?
What's the point of life if not to create from what's been destroyed?
Tuesday, October 24, 2017
love and whatnots 2
"I remember when he said he was in love with me. I didn't expect it to happen. To be honest, I had a low-key panic attack and I had to keep it casual so he wouldn't think I was losing my mind. My heart...I felt it soar into my chest and I had butterflies in my belly and tears in my eyes. I think it was so intense that I puked shortly after. He didn't see me, we were on the phone when he said those words. It feels silly but this is also very unique. this is us...him being sentimental and me being sick because of love." -Carry
Monday, October 23, 2017
One of these people
Thursday, October 19, 2017
Her eulogy
Her tears would never heal her. They would never make her pain go away so she did her best to prevent herself from crying or ignore her tears and pretend they weren't there. She did her best to go on with her life, plaster fake smiles on her lips and walk as if she owned the World while in fact, it was breaking down at her feet. There was nothing left inside or maybe too much was there. She did push those feelings deep down, avoiding to feel every single one of them, especially the happy ones. Because what could possibly happen if not being disappointed.They would say she was a piece of work and was definitely too much work for them to handle. They didn't understand her, the peculiar ways of her mind. They didn't even want to.
They would say it was a relief that she died because at least now they could focus on something else. They wouldn't need to spend too much time in her gloomy and depressing company. They wouldn't need to comfort her and cater to her needs anymore. And yet she didn't even tell them what she wanted. She didn't even tell them how much she needed them and how terrible life was for her. So they thought she simply was making it hard for them on purpose. They couldn't possibly know how deeply hurt she truly was. How much of a nightmare her existence felt like. They couldn't know. They wouldn't know.
Her death would be a relief and she expected her eulogy to be the reflection of that. People lining up to express their joy to have gotten rid of her. People lining up to paint a portrait of her she already was aware of. She was a monster and Death took her away. Maybe that would be the last good action she could give. Making herself disappear...
Ah! If only.
Tuesday, October 17, 2017
Love and whatnots
"He turned my life upside down and I let him. Never before have I felt this way for someone and even now. I have no idea how to handle it." -William
"What does living in my truth feel like? I don't know... Liberating? For a long time, I wore a mask because I thought being myself was a sin. I wanted to end my own life at some point. I am glad I didn't. Look at me now! Even more alive than yesterday!" -Sasha
"I never thought she would feel the same way as I did. To me, she was too exquisite, a real masterpiece I couldn't even afford to look at. I am blessed." -Laurie
"I miss my dad. I have a father but only met my dad once. I met him when I was 7 on that day he took me to the beach with mom. Can anyone take me to that man, Please?" -John
"I am sad. I am in pain 24/7 and I honestly can't stop feeling like this. The only moment I feel okay is when I am with him. It's when he holds me in his arms and when he whispers sweet nothing there... He could even be silent, for all I care. it would have worked. I feel like it's worth being alive you know?" -Ethel.
"I treat her like she deserves to be treated. She's a force of nature. she's to be feared.she's to be revered. she's untamable and I feel grateful to be allowed by her sides. She's the kind of beauty writers talk about in their books and painters paint and I want her to realize that there was no way in the world that I would forget about her because she chose me. She chose /me/."