unrequited love is not safe: random thoughts

I used to believe there was a beauty in unrequited love, a safety net because I already knew the ending. Was it an excuse to crash against the wall or to put a distance between people and me? was it an excuse so I could handle better the three moments of my life I let someone in and ended up devastated as a result? because frankly.. these people were a class A assholes.. borderline psychopath for one of them.

Unrequited love is not pretty. It's not even safe. Not when it's a never-ending destructive loop you choose because this way is safer. Not when you can't trust yourself enough to let someone in. Not when you're convinced that everything you'll do would only destroy the other and/or you for all you care.

so, because I'm the champion for falling for all the wrong people, it's better to watch at a distance until I come to terms with myself.

But I still have to say, you are one pretty temptation I don't know how to resist. One I'd eat with my afternoon tea without thinking about the calories because you make my whole self, tingle. Thank you for that. But I'd watch at a distance for both you and myself

Batman v superman: SPOILERS. Observation N°10: Birth and Rebirth

émoticône gr I invite you to read the previous 9 if you're interestedBirth and RebiSo, like I said, I'm just going to talk about what truly caught my attention in the movie. It's just flowing as it comes to my mind so forgive the lack of expertise. You don't have to agree with me of course, it's just me trying to explain why I love that movie.

I will finish with this one. because it's short and because I am getting really tired of thinking and writing XD

Birth: 

-the birth of Doomsday. He's the blood of Lex blood but ALSO like I said, the manifestation of his rage, anger, pain, and hatred. He also could embody the feelings of the people who hate on Superman or fear him or even fetishize him. (I think this word is misspelled)

-The Rebirth of Batman/Bruce Wayne: He strayed away from his usual self, from his self-imposed rule, from his moral code. He was the shadow of himself until Superman's humanity and sacrifice brought him back to his own humanity.; He is reborn at the end of the movie, learned from his mistakes, found a new purpose to live. it's so important and so symbolic. that ending was really interesting. I now know that

-Rebirth of Superman. He was born Kal-el but he was still a kid so he can't remember that. He was raised as Clark Kent, was born again as Kal-El in MoS and had to adjust himself to being both Kal-El and Clark Kent. When he finally found some balance (a false one if you take a closer look. please read my observation of Superman). He has to give up on everything AGAIN. face his humanity for once and for all and embrace Death. The most vulnerable thing he could have done was to die. The most humane thing he could have done was to sacrifice himself. He does so, he will be reborn. Not as Kal-El, not as Clark but as Superman. He would FINALLY be Superman once he comes back to life. it was necessary for him to finally achieve his ultimate goal. bring REAL Hope to people.

-Birth of the Justice League:

Do I even need to explain??? Early stages it is but it always began with the Trinity so. it's done émoticône grin

With this, I'm finally done with my analysis! I didn't think I could end up with 10 big stuff to talk about. I tried to tone it down and be short. I can't even think anymore émoticône smile I appreciate the support and you being all gentle and respectful émoticône smile if you liked it I'm even happier émoticône grin Thank you

Batman v superman: SPOILERS Observation N°9: The Cameos

So, like I said, I'm just going to talk about what truly caught my attention in the movie. It's just flowing as it comes to my mind so forgive the lack of expertise. You don't have to agree with me of course, it's just me trying to explain why I love that movie.

I would not talk about Wonder Woman because I talked about her in previous posts. if you're interested, please read them.

Aquaman:

It's a really short one. We don't see much. It's more visual than anything else. We see him underwater (well, Arthur is the King of the Ocean.) at what seemed like the wrecked ship. We're in the 21st century and MANY ships sunk and along with them, the seas were polluted. Do you remember the Erica affair? how much of a disaster this was? (an ecological one). I think Aquaman is tired of humans right now. They kill, over-fish, extinct species, maim poor animals (am I right Sharks?), pollute his domain. He's not really willing to welcome them. We can clearly see he's menacing, charismatic, and reclusive. He appeared like a mythical creature (Lochness monster style) and rejected that man as if he was nothing. we can see him demonstrate his strength and I LOVED IT! so powerful and the sound.... it gave me chills! This Arthur is darker, edgier, almost similar to that Justice League Unlimited episode with the Aquaman who had long hair and a hook as a hand. Finally, he gave him the respect he deserved! émoticône heart He might be the last one they would try to convince because he's most likely NOT going to accept easily émoticône grin

Flash:

(I must say, I am not fond of the actor. I don't like him because I'm too fond of Grant Gustin .. >> Sue me!)

He makes two cameos. First, what seemed like a dream but really just him traveling through time and warning Bruce about the danger the world would face if they don't "unite". He's desperate, in a hurry, scared. You KNOW the world he comes from is terrible! We know the enemy they would fight is terrifying (and the scene before let you understand we're talking about Darkseid here!) We don't see him very well which keeps him mysterious.

We know he's hidden. He's a meta-human in hiding after all. We don't see him very well, (so I don't really know his face). but we know he's on the alert. He's witnessing a crime occurring at the supermarket he's at and he manages to save the man and incapacitate the thief! He's heroic but he's discreet. He's a hero in his heart. we can see he controls his ability. We can see he's been doing that for a while now. We also know he's been hiding ever since. He's mysterious but he's good. We still have to see but I think he might grow on me, maybe?

Cyborg:

Definitely, one of my favorite we get to see his origin story. the motherbox (super important element!) we get to see his pain, we get to see his father doing his very best to save him. We don't know much about him but we know he KNOWS pain. we can figure out that he's going to have a trouble being part human and part..... machine! We also see that whatever happened to him might have been REALLY gross. but we don't know much about him so I can't wait to see his movie émoticône grin

they say each member of the league means something. If SUperman is Hope, Batman is Justice, Wonder Woman is Peace what are the others? I wonder.

it's too early to know but I can't wait to have more material to think over.

Batman v superman: SPOILERS. Observation N°8 : Women

So, like I said, I'm just going to talk about what truly caught my attention in the movie. It's just flowing as it comes to my mind so forgive the lack of expertise. You don't have to agree with me of course, it's just me trying to explain why I love that movie.

We see 5 of them. I'm not going to go into biiiig details for these ones.

We have Martha: the mother
Lois: the lover
Senator/Wonder Woman: Woman in Power
Mercy: the loyal servant

Martha:

Well, ever since MoS, Martha Kent always played an important role. She didn't physically give birth to him, but she was always a source of comfort for Clark. She was the one who could keep him calm and the voice of reason. She's wise, she's loving, she is a guide in Clark's life. She is always trying to guide him the best she could and protect her son. But she's not overwhelming or a control freak. Martha respects Clark's need to become Superman, she encourages him to do so but she always gives him the choice. Nobody but Martha in MoS and BvS give Clark the choice to be whoever he wants to be. She's accepting of him as a whole.

She's also the mother Lex would want to have. he targets her to force Superman to do his bidding but he also gives her a chance to survive. a small window but still a chance to survive. She's Marie, the mother of Jesus (if we go that far in the metaphor and since it's REALLY the metaphor they went for in the movie.. it's not far stretched). She's very important to Clark. (remember how far he went to save her in MoS? how desperate he was when Lex told him he got Martha? He knelt, defeated in front of Lex. Martha is truly his world BUT she's not the only one.

Bonus point: She's a brave woman. Braver than most would think. She welcomed him and accepted him in spite of the danger that it might bring. She's not Wonder Woman strong, but she's a woman human émoticône heart

Lois: the lover.

Lois is definitely having a supporting role and an important one. she is a woman who wants answers and the truth. she's always been true to herself and true to Clark/Kal-El. she is persistent, stubborn in a good way, passionate about her job and cares a great deal about humanity. she's done so many things (she saved the world, created a bond with Superman, knows him more than anyone, except maybe his mother). She's close to Martha (which is important. no women's rivalry here! She also gave Superman so much support! especially at the end of MoS when she is the one who comforts him after he killed Zod. She is the one who helped him handle his new life and welcomes him in the new chapter of his life.post-Zodod). She is the one he confides into (except when he decided to leave because he was overwhelmed), his anchor to this world aside from his mother. The only other human being who accepted him with his flaws and his qualities. as a WHOLE. Lois is his confident, she is his future, she is so strong!

she's put into the action very often. (in MoS, when she escaped from the Kryptonian ship, figured out how to stop Zod, comforted Superman. In BvS when she tried to protect him by throwing away the spear and later when she tried to take it back after she realized it would help him defeat his enemy. She's his partner, his best friend, his only friend and of course the love of his life. She accepted to wear his ring after his death, thus showing her commitment to him. her love is still there and strong even if he died.

BONUS POINT: SHe didn't say I love you. He did. she is in love with him but has yet to say it. He knows though. He knows.

Senator/ Wonder Woman:

They really are women of power. Senator has actual political power and Wonder Woman has physical strength and skills (we don't know much about them for now)

Senator Kelly stood against evil (Lex Luthor) with her wits and her words. She was able to stood against him She knew he was dangerous and yet didn't back up She also tried to be fair and bring people together. She was reasonable (like I wish many politicians could be) but see how she ended? betrayed and killed by someone who had a different plan in mind? who thrived with hatred instead of love?

Wonder Woman stood against Doomsday. Against hatred and anger personified. She fought against Doomsday but used brutal force against him. No compassion, no love. She was about to leave but ended up choosing the fight.We also see her at the end of the movie, changed too. touched by Superman's sacrifice and his faith in humanity again. When you pay attention to her, you realize that she's distancing herself from mankind. She doesn't want to interfere with them but Bruce Wayne kinda forces it on her. unwillingly she has to cooperate with him. They do flirt but it's not serious. maybe a game, a little challenge but not serious. She still decided to leave until Doomsday arrived. Superman's first sacrifice (I believe he was nuked when she decided to intervene) motivated her enough to return to the battlefield. But it truly was Superman's death that reached out to her. He sacrificed himself i battle (hence why she decided to honour him like a warrior), but he also showed her that mankind was worth saving again. What happened that made her change her mind on humans? My guess? World War II. I'm pretty sure she went all: "mankind only wants to destroy and kill. i can't with them anymore!"

Mercy:

There's not so much to say about Mercy. But we can say that she's the living devoted loyal servant trope. She doesn't speak much, she understands Lex, she obeys him to the point of getting killed by him with a smirk. I haven't explored more this character but can say that she is completely disposable for Lex. just a pawn to use in his grand scheme. Maybe she's the way some men (or the men like Luthor) sees women? the eye-candy (sophisticated, gorgeous) obedient (she never contradicts Lex, never questions him) and efficient (all she did was flawless) 

I hope you like it. émoticône smile

Batman v Superman: SPOILERS Observation N°7: Lex Luthor

So, like I said, I'm just going to talk about what truly caught my attention in the movie. It's just flowing as it comes to my mind so forgive the lack of expertise. You don't have to agree with me of course, it's just me trying to explain why I love that movie.

Lex was really a hard piece of work. I went through various feelings while watching him but as the movie went on, I suddenly started to understand him and it all became different. I know that many people grew up with the Bruce Timm version of the character but, he wasn't always like that. He was campy and whammy in Superman movies. SOOOO campy. and he was ridiculous when he first appeared and later on. and he had hair (didn't always start bald. in fact when he first appeared he lost his hair because of Superman and became his enemy because of that, basically.)

Let's Go émoticône grin

so we all know he's a major sociopath, megalomaniac and selfish. We also know he loves knowledge, he's scientifically curious and well-versed and of course, power-hungry. A real control-freak.

3 major points I want to talk about:

-His relationship with men
-His relationship with women
-His relationship with Superman/God

* His relationship with Men:

We know that Lex has a deep hatred for men. He despises them. He wants to ridicule them. We know it all starts with his father, whom he hates because he abused him. You can tell by the way he speaks of his father that Lex didn't grow in a loving home. He feared the man (was he beating him? I don't know. Was he humiliating him? probably! I think it was more a mix of neglect and little to zero concern about his kid. His son was a failure and Lex felt powerless against him, humiliated, unimportant. He was afraid of his father and didn't even MOVE a single piece of his dad's room until he decided to step up and BE himself! He moved his father's favorite piece (the painting) in an act of rebellion, self-establishment and also major power-trip. He distanced himself from his dad and became his own man.

He also humiliates other men. Remember the way he fed the gummy bear to that old man? old enough to be his dad? he treated him like a child like he was nothing and forced him to do as he pleased. He also toyed around with Batman. Batman wasn't a rival, he was a pawn AND a nuisance, so of course he wanted to use him and get rid of him. He used and humiliated the disabled man (Maybe he didn't give him his cheques and maybe he wrote on them so Bruce Wayne could see them and be maaaaaad enough to go fight Superman?)

-His relationship with women

We don't know what his mother did to him. Did she die when he was a kid? if so, he both respects her memory (hence why he tried to be a dashing young man with that senator. He tried to seduce her but failed so he switched). but he also hates her. (if she died when he was young, then she abandoned him to his father. She left him behind. she betrayed him. She should have been there and protect him but didn't.) so he wants to make her pay for leaving him behind.

or Maybe, if she didn't die, she could have just left and abandoned him? maybe she was scared of his ways and rejected him? Maybe she's still alive but wants nothing to do with him. The result is the same though. he hates women. He hates his mom and wants to humiliate her. (Hence why he killed the senator and humiliated her at the same time. That also explains why he didn't hesitate to sacrifice Mercy. she was devoted to him but he killed her anyway to serve his purpose. he also kidnapped Martha and wrote on her forehead the word "Witch". he dehumanized her so she could be killed because she was nothing. Let's remind everyone that she's the perfect mom. She loves her son in spite of this difference, loves and protects him while his own mother is nowhere to be seen. she's the mother he might have wanted to have. and while he humiliated Lois and threw her off of the rooftop.

But he also wants them to have a chance. (so I think if his mother died, then he wants to find a way to forgive her and if she didn't die, then he wants to give her a chance to fix her mistake). Martha hasn't killed straight away. so she could have a chance to survive her assault? Lois although he knew she would survive because Superman would save her. it's fascinating to see him interact with women and think of an explanation.

-his relationship with Superman/God

I already said before that Lex has a HUGE grief against GOD and does represent the MAN. He has grieves against God because it allowed his father to abuse him because his mother is absent (dead or gone) because maybe some terrible other things happened to him and he blamed it on God. He wants to fix the messes God did to him and therefore has to "kill" him. Very Nietzsche if you ask me émoticône smile

He relates Superman to God. He came from the sky, he has powers. He has immense powers that Lex doesn't have. Of course, in Lex mind (and he quotes Dante in the movie and makes several references to God/the devil I don't have in mind right now) Superman is a god. (although he fully knows that Superman is alien)
so he has to bring him down and defeat God. avenge himself, and become stronger than him.

He embodies humanity's attempt at becoming something more. Lex wants to transcend humanity and become more than a god, maybe A god himself? (after all, he gave birth to an abomination: Doomsday and had access to 10 000 planets knowledge)

BONUS POINT:

At the very beginning, I didn't understand the mannerism (it vanished at the end when Lex becomes aware of a BIGGER threat than Superman would ever be). He was erratic, spoke really fast, was not able to stay put until he wanted to intimidate and overpower the senator, that other old guy. he's not a social animal but he's also a big brain with A million thoughts going there. him being erratic in the way he speaks only demonstrates that he's on several levels. he's thinking too much. in the end, he's focused. why? we don't know. what's going in his mind aside from fear of Darkseid? We? we don't know. he saw something and he decided to gather his thoughts into one very simple thing which is saving Earth. (that I am sure)

because he does love Earth and people, as long as they go his way. he doesn't like people who oppose him but he did a lot of things to rebuild metropolis, and presents himself as a philanthropist. it has a purpose but I do believe he cares a little bit for Earth. at least Earth. 

He is fascinating to say the least. Borderline creepy but I liked it. There is so much more than just the weirdo. Please reconsider this character. I am aware there were a couple of issues, but I am sure it's a problem of cuts and editing. or maybe he didn't have enough scenes. but that's what I got from the scenes I sawémoticône smile

Batman V Superman: SPOILERS. Observation N°6 :BATMAN

So, like I said, I'm just going to talk about what truly caught my attention in the movie. It's just flowing as it comes to my mind so forgive the lack of expertise. You don't have to agree with me of course, it's just me trying to explain why I love that movie.

Well, Batman, I think this one would not be as detailed as the previous ones.

-Batman movie version is really one of the ones I loved the most. There were many versions of Batman in it: three I could spot on. The dark knight Batman, Batman TAS and Batman the Arkham games.

-Batman has NEVER grieved: 

He's a traumatized boy. ALWAYS! He's constantly going through a nightmare and wants to inflict it to others. (his enemies. The crooks and criminals) and himself (survivor's guilt, after all, he decided to give his all to all the fights he's doing, especially the one against Superman. it was a suicide mission of some sort although he wanted to bring him down too and prepared for it. He saw his parents die in front of him and survived this. How come he wouldn't somehow make himself pay for this? hence his violence. Hence the fact he scares everyone, even the victims he rescues. hence why he stays away from people and don't build a life. it's not so much because he's a vigilante, but because he can't allow himself to be intimate with someone. he doesn't think he deserves this. He's a survivor and shouldn't have survived his parents. (I'm not saying he should not! It's just the way I think he thinks)

He lost his parents when he was young and sought refuge in a Batcave, became the batman, and took some youngling under his wings (Robin). We don't know it yet, but I assume he was slowly starting to open himself up again with Robin's help, but he lost Robin too and his sanity slipped a little bit.

He didn't grieve. Didn't even allow himself to. Why am I saying that?

First of all, he lives not too far away from his family's mansion that went to decay and ruin. Just like his mind. just like his heart. He is devastated and dead inside (kinda). And he visits the place very often, which means that he's not letting go! The last place he goes to before he decides to go to war against Superman was the mansion. He's ready to die. I'm not saying he's a death-seeker, but he's ready. let's not forget to mention that the scene when he sees the chèques and the messages were written on it (afterthoughts it could have been Lex who did that) is the scene that pushes him off of the edge. The guilt was too much to handle.

Besides, he has a shrine dedicated to the Robin he lost. a reminder of what he lost. We don't know yet what happened but I can assume there is a lot of guilt over the death of Robin. there is anger too! there is pain and sadness of course, but Anger and guilt are overwhelming him. He's not remembering someone he lost, he's giving himself the motivation to keep doing his job and not the good one.

I have already mentioned the water thing. water = emotions. there is a lot of water around Bruce but he's not close to it. when you take a look at the Batcave, around the shrine there is a thin stream of water but it's proper, subtle, separate from him. Bruce is distancing himself from his emotions. from the pain. from grievance!

*Bruce has crossed a line/ there's some serious moral event horizon that happened twice in his Batman life.

Yes, Batman is brutal. Yes! Batman induces fear in everyone. yes! Batman brands people and somehow leads them to their deaths in prison. Batman has crossed a moral event horizon you know, and I assume it happened when Robin died! He's been Batman for about a decade or two and his method was NOT the right one since he lost poor Robin. So yes, he's jaded. Yes, he went extremely just like someone who lost someone and can't move on. Usually, they tend to destroy themselves in the process (not all of them but some of them can't overcome a loss.) he even acknowledges himself as being a criminal. He even went to war and ready to KILL Superman. Why you ask? because he can't let "Robin" happen again. he can't afford to lose anyone anymore. He can't just lock up criminals who might escape and kill more people. We don't know yet how Robin died, but if they're following the Jason Todd's storyline, I think Batman would have done just that. remember he is guilt-ridden. He's lost his humanity and became a monster. He became THE BATMAN. and it's really not a small thing.

He's not too far gone through

When he fought Clark, he reconnected with his humanity. Clark who he thought wasn't a man suddenly became a man the minute he had a human mother. It's not a coincidence authors named Bruce and Clark mothers the same. it was in order to make a parallel. Superman reached out to Bruce (not Batman but Bruce) the moment he said his mother's (their mothers) name. It forced Bruce to face his past, to face his pain, to start to grieve.

and you know Superman reached out to him at the end, when the colors are back and Bruce says 'I failed him in life, I won't fail him again." He's changed. and you can see that when he decides not to brand Lex but just warn him. Batman's been touched by Hope, hope that the world would be better and that there is another way than his own brutal self-destructive way. He was saved in a way and I was really emotional when I watched the scene. He also seems more at peace, sad yes but relieved. (he showed up at the funeral and didn't RUN AWAY. He faced his pain, he faced his sorrow, he grieved for his parents and Robin's death.

He's a new man at the end of the movie and was reborn thanks to Superman's death.

I love Batman and this narrative really works for me. émoticône heart I am so glad we can see him evolve in the movie

Bonus Points:

The fight against Doomsday wasn't really his fight, we know that. But I'd like to point out the fact that in spite of not being prepared he fought against Doomsday and confronted his own humanity and mortality. He didn't want to punish himself anymore for being a survivor. He also has switched sides. (please see my analysis of Doomsday to understand what I mean) and his views on Superman by the time of the fight émoticône smile

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Batman v superman: SPOILERS Observation N°5: DOOMSDAY

AH! Doomsday! so many things to say about him. but I'm still exploring him so I'll just talk about the three main meanings we saw, my twin and I while discussing the movie.

Doomsday could refer to:

-The way people see Superman
-The way people FEEL about Superman
-The way Lex feels about Superman

*The way people see Superman:

An easy one. He's a monster! he's an alien. Doomsday is the harbinger of the apocalypse. he would bring the end of humanity. Who would be able to stop him if he goes Rogue? Remember, no justice league is in this movie. Even Batman is more of a Boogy-man than an actual person. SUperman has the power to level city and destroy humanity just like ZOD did! Zod is dead so they can't relate Superman to him anymore. They fear the day he would snap and Doomsday is what SUperman could be if he goes wild. He's not human (just the way some people feel about foreigners). he's to be feared and destroyed.

You see a glimpse of it in the dystopian future (now alternate future since Martha's safe and Lois too). Superman became a total dictator (Hello Injustice ♥) who rules by fear instead of Hope. Who doesn't hesitate to KILL anyone who stands his way? You have several interventions in the movie. When Superman goes to trial you have a lot of anti-superman signs (hello Westboro Baptist church and racist/anti-LGBT bigots), on tv, you have a lot of people questioning his very existence. (reminded me of Watchmen a lot: Who watches the Watchmen). So very human to want to have absolute control of everything and everyone. Superman can't really be put under control, you have to trust him and they didn't trust him at this point of the movie.

* The way people FEEL about Superman:

You can tie that one to the previous one. because of the way they see Superman, they feel a certain way about him. I decided to separate both of them because the first interpretation was about the people. Doomsday is a threat to them. This one is about Superman and the impact the hatred directed at him has on him. Because yes, he's being hated on by the world (and the viewers too). They are afraid of him, they want to hurt him or at least to maim him. They want to put an end to him and Doomsday manifests the will these people have to bring Superman down. Was he really Superman in this movie by the way? he BECAME superman at the end. we still had Kal-el until his death. We still had him struggling to be accepted by humanity.

Speaking of this: Kal-El's sacrifice was the most human moment I've seen in a while. He faced hatred and decided to end it. he faced his death in spite of him not wanting to die and having a future with Lois. He CHOSE LIFE and he CHOSE HUMANITY. He chose to give up on the most honest thing he ever had. The only thing he truly had for him: His life. His trust, his LOVE! Doomsday (hatred) was defeated by LOVE (Superman). It's extremely poetic and tragic and human and his death made me cry. ME!!! who hated on superman XD I cried like a baby. The music helped too.

*LEX:

Doomsday is his child, the manifestation of his feelings towards Superman. The manifestation of his burning anger and hatred towards God. Because in his mind, Superman is GOD. I'm not even inventing it, he said so in the movie.

Throughout the movie, we see how he sees people, men, women, and especially god. He kept talking about it for so long (I'll write it in more details when I'll come to Lex). and we understand very quickly that to him Superman is a god. BUT God is evil. God has to be destroyed. God has to die. Lex is The MAN. (the metaphor for it, but not completely. he has twists I'll explain when I talk about him). A man who was wronged by God. We know his father was abusive. We know his mother abandoned him (is she dead? is she not? we don't know. I'll talk about it later). We know he is mad at God for allowing both tragedies to happen to him. so he wants to bring him down. He wants to become superior. He wants to avenge himself and triumph. It's exactly how Nietzsche "God is dead" philosophical work talks about. how Men killed God and I believe Lex here, is actually doing it.

We're still talking about it, so I might see things differently but that's what came to our mind after seeing the movie émoticône smile

Batman v Superman: SPOILERS: Observation N°4: ZOD

So, like I said, I'm just going to talk about what truly caught my attention in the movie. It's just flowing as it comes to my mind so forgive the lack of expertise. You don't have to agree with me of course, it's just me trying to explain why I love that movie.

ZOD:

If Superman is the metaphor for foreigners, Zod is too. But not just "a" foreigner. He is another world and culture. let me explain. In MoS, the whole movie was really about Clark trying to figure out who he is. He's been raised in a culture but came from another culture. He became the best of both worlds. not a "perfect" best of both worlds, but someone who's trying to honor both sides. Just like a foreigner who would settle somewhere and would become a nice mix of both cultures. He's flexible and adapts himself to the country he lives in without rejecting who he also is. Just like you won't ask a mixed-raced baby to choose to be either on his father side or his mother side. he's both and will always be both.

Zod is the opposite. Zod is rigid, he can't adapt to the world (physically maybe, but he would never change his view of the world and try to fit in while NOT betraying his roots.). He refuses to change (he even tried to terraform Earth so it could fit HIM and his needs instead of learning how to breathe on Earth and get used to its customs. He was blinded, stubborn, radical in his methods and thinking. He's like a thousand years old civilization refusing to move on. He's like parents refusing to see their children grow up and become their own person and insisting on keeping them the way THEY see them. He mocked Kal-El and the fact he loved humans and adapted himself. He harmed the planet and was about to kill everyone.

Superman had to choose between two worlds. Two-way of thinking.

-Either he chose Krypton and its rigid, conquering, blood-thirsty and power-hungry ways. He severed his relationship with Earth and embraced a path of destruction that was the Kryptonian way. remember they went extinct because of their ways. they were stubborn and selfish and worked in a system of casts. Zod tried to reason with them but he was shut down (yes, even Zod, who was rigid tried to save his planet and adapt but he was shut down. so he decided to shut down Kal-El too as retaliation for the way he was treated. as repetition too. "you do as you were told. I do what was done to me" kind of behavior.

-Either he chose Earth: his way of life. he would adapt, he would move on. He would keep searching for himself because this world allows him to. He might not be loved by humans, he might scare them away but it's a risk Clark was ready to take. He couldn't condemn himself to a life of solitude and pain and destruction. He had to choose the way that would allow life to be and people the freedom to be too. He chose to be progressist and this is a BIG DEAL. He chose HOPE. the hope to maybe have a better life than he had until then. the hope to finally fulfill his dreams or become something/someone. The CHANCE to have a better life. He gambled on it.

He chose humanity. that's the very meaning of the moment he killed Zod. yes, it was barbaric but necessary. he had to kill the old ways to welcome the new ways.

But he chose not to follow a stubborn and lethal way of life. He acknowledged it wasn't the solution. He could never be like that. Zod showed him what he could have been if he didn't have the life he had and made the choices he made. Zod is the living proof of what extremism can do. of what refusing to adapt to the world around you can kill you.

it's not an easy choice. Because Superman chose to destroy the last remnant of his old world. the last of his kind. Maybe the nostalgia/idealization he had of his world. He had to overcome his fears too. he chose uncertainty over something certified! over a way of life that had worked and could have even though it wasn't adapted for Clark.

that sacrifice goes way beyond just Superman snapping Zod's neck. (and he already killed Zod in Superman 2 so what's the big deal here?)

Batman v Superman:: SPOILERS: Observation N°3 : Filter and Destruction

So, like I said, I'm just going to talk about what truly caught my attention in the movie. It's just flowing as it comes to my mind so forgive the lack of expertise.

FILTER AND DESTRUCTION

Many people complained about the filter; saying it's too dark and blah blah blah. I know you might just won't care about what I say and it's your right! I'm not trying to win here, I'm trying to explain why for me it was important to have said filter. I do believe that a movie is really about all you see and all that is not explained. it's all about the details, all about the meaning and hints.

let's begin with destruction first shall we?

-It didn't shock me because there is a lot of destruction in both the comics and the cartoons. The only difference is that comics and cartoons are PG. sometimes PG-13 but never beyond. so, of course, you wouldn't talk about casualty, you'd act as if there are none. in Justice League Unlimited, a cartoon, every episode has destruction in it. so please, stop bringing this argument. it doesn't make sense to me.

but then if there is no casualty, what's at stake? what actually is at stake? in Avengers 2 I was actually disappointed that after all they did (especially the Sokovia fight) NOBODY DIED! Are you freaking kidding me? nobody died? how can you show the REAL danger something or someone is if there is no threat at all?

Yes, it's not pleasant to see, but it's not meant to be pleasant. it's not even for the sake of being gritty. it just is how things are. you'd tell me that in a crowded city if there's an earthquake nobody would die? even if everyone is doing their best, there would be at least (and unfortunately) 1 person dead. and it's a tragedy!

Superman was ALONE. and only Kal-el (because he wasn't Superman just yet) for 24hours and you're already asking him to do more than he can? because, he's so Gary Stu that he can fight ZOD who really really was a threat to the world, BROUGHT destruction to Metropolis, was unstoppable AND SAVE EVERYONE IN THE WORLD? come on émoticône smile please.

He did save the world. Are we being ungrateful that much that we will throw stones at him because unfortunately, some died? so maybe he should have saved everyone but then Zod would have won émoticône grin how about that? and they would all be dead.

FILTER:

A filter is important in a movie. it doesn't just set the tone, it also tells a story. Why was the world so bleak and gray? Kal-el: Clark wasn't accepted. always felt like a misfit always was searching for a purpose. in MoS. He found it by the end of it (at great cost) but the world didn't accept him with open arms. we're post 9/11, of course, they would not. it became even worse in BvS. all that destruction stuck to him, even though he was doing all he could to save people on a daily basis.

He gained fans, of course, people who cherished him, worshipped him, but he was FETISHIZED at best. they relied on him, they treated him like a god, they treated him like the man who MUST save them, all the time, every time. they didn't welcome him as himself. there was no hope there, just dependency.

BRIGHT COLOURS CAME AT THE END OF THE MOVIE! because of his sacrifice, because people SAW HIM for WHO HE REALLY WAS. BECAUSE HE REACHED OUT TO THEIR VERY SOUL. COLOURS CAME BACK. he is accepted finally. he gave them hope and showed them the way. The people of course BUT ALSO BRUCE WAYNE. (mostly BRUCE WAYNE) he touched people hearts and minds with the ultimate sacrifice and what best way to convey that emotion than to remove the bleak filter and give colors back???

Batman v Superman: SPOILERS: Observation N°2 : Superman

So, like I said, I'm just going to talk about what truly caught my attention in the movie. It's just flowing as it comes to my mind so forgive the lack of expertise. 

So to me, this Superman is FINALLY the Superman I was expecting to see and like. I know that many of you prefer a campier version of the character and it's your right. I am not trashing it. Many people still love BATMAN 1966 as the only true real Batman and view the Bruce Timm version as the worst! because he's too violent. to each their own.

-Superman truly reflects what I always envisioned for the character. What for me he should have been: A metaphor for foreigners. Down to his creators who, if I am correct, were immigrants, (Jewish immigrants who escaped from an anti-Semite Europe when Hitler was in power). Anti-semitism was still going strong in America. (still is anyway). and I believe they created Superman to show that a foreigner is worthy. they can be heroes, they can integrate each other very well.

-Clark is the foreigner who comes to a new place, be it he ran away from an armed conflict, (so is a refugee) or he just wanted to try his luck. I can relate to that. I am that foreigner. I am that person who comes to a new place and is not welcomed with open arms.

-We're in a post 9/11 world where people would not embrace foreigners (and don't) without making sure they're not a threat. We also live in a world where you can't be too different. they give you the impression you can be, but you can't stray too far away. there's a norm and you have to conform to it. He is a foreigner, (a second generation) who got to live with the culture he was raised in, but has/had to deal with the culture he was born in. (he's Kryptonian. he came to terms with it in MoS and finally found a way to balance both of his heritage.) it could also work for mixed-raced people who are (and shouldn't be constantly torn apart because they come from two different culture.

-I can relate to him on levels I have never been able to relate to with good old Superman. (not because he's overpowered. but because he never had an edge on him. nothing made me empathize with him like I did with the rest of the league (Martian Manhunter has more of my sympathy than would Superman) because I am this foreigner.

-He is and has ALWAYS tried to do good. He's been in people lives way before he embraced his heritage. when he was still in the dark. he kept doing his best even though everyone was shitting on him (fans included). Even when, after he came out, people were still trying to tear him apart OR fetishize him for being different (and I have experienced it too). He never gave up on people. NEVER;

-That edge I was talking about. He is questioning himself. He doubts himself (not really the people, he took so many leaps of faith in humanity but they all failed him!) NEVER BEFORE I have seen him question himself about what to do, what to be. being hesitant. He is kind too, he's smooth and soft and loving.

-people are so jaded... I don't understand. this superman gave me HOPE. not the campy hope in those Christophe Reeves movies, but really hope that no matter how hard you have it come your way, you can still DO the right thing. even if it costs you a LOT! you can still CHOOSE to do right.

-So Yes I love him! I will defend him tooth and nails

Batman v Superman : SPOILERS. Observation N°1; Water Symbolism

So, like I said, I'm just going to talk about what truly caught my attention in the movie. It's just flowing as it comes to my mind so forgive the lack of expertise.

This is a key element to both MoS and BvS. Water refers to emotions and birth. It's not very explicit for who doesn't look but it really was the one thing that hit me like a brick while I was watching the movie! I remember nudging my sister and be like: "did you see all that water?!"

*In MoS Clark was a lot around water.

-Clark saved his classmates from drowning and he was alone in a huge mass of water. It's cold and dark. He took a huge risk, exposed himself to the world and didn't control his powers. He was confused and the water reflects that.

-when there was the whale moment from the rig oil rescue, he also was in a large mass of water and alone. The water wasn't clear, it was for both moments, dark/cold/ troubled. He was an adult and had a better control of his power but he was still alone. He was still soul-searching.

*Then in BvS we have the moment he's  around water


 -He is with Lois in the bath. a small amount of water, closeness, intimacy, comfort, love. he willingly jumps in the water, his glasses go off, he's himself, he's whole.

-Then you have the kryptonite reveal, the water is clear as day, it's pure, it's part of the world. it's NATURAL. almost peaceful. because kryptonite only becomes a weapon when it's used like this. when it's taken out of its "natural" place. It also can represent Clark/Kal-El on Earth, being pulled out of water by children (Lex, I'll come to lex in another post) for something ominous and dark (turning kryptonite into a lethal weapon. Superman's death)

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-Last moment of water was the fight against Doomsday. A large amount of unclear water, he's with Lois but it's dark, dangerous, ominous even. (well, his future demise) But he's not alone this time. Lois is with him. She is his world, his anchor to this world and his reason to fight. It echoes to the scene of him as an adult, at the oil rig. he sacrificed himself to save these guys but ended up alive and well. except here, he dies.

*Other people are also around water but it's more subtle: 

-You have the dark/dirty/troubled moment of lex with the Kryptonian ship. something ominous, dangerous, dirty, unholy (really). and lex was somehow baptized in this water if you look at the deleted scene. it's really that. he's reborn too, hence the change of mannerism towards the end of the movie. He's seen things.

-We also have a glimpse of it with Batman, in the Batcave! he's surrounded by water, it's subtle, distant. it doesn't touch him, it's not around him. he is concealing his emotions, distancing himself from them. there are surrounding the shrine he made for Jason Todd (well, Robin, we don't know if it's Jason yet, in the movie). The shrine is a reminder of what he lost but he's not grieving, not accepting that death, not willing to face his emotions émoticône grin

I will always find you Pride x Asma

Pride and Asma: « I will always find you »

A/N: this is the beginning of a story I'm writing with a friend of mine. He's doing Pride and I'm doing Asma/Elpis. And I am really satisfied with this beginning that would be the background story of them both. Behold, the tears:p All the usual disclaimer 

xxx

Asma crawled to Pride's private quarters. She barely had enough energy to teleport there and could barely make an audible sound when she knocked on the door. Her life force was leaving her and she knew it would only be a matter of time before death would claim her. Yet, the only thing she had in mind at such a moment was him. She wanted to see him one last time before she met her demise. He heard the noise and dropped the file he was reading, to quickly open the massive golden door and take her in. His beloved. The only person of the universe who mattered to him. The sight horrified him because she was laying in a pool of her own blood and he could see her lifeforce, manifesting itself as a warm and comforting blue light, raining out of her body like pixie dust sprinkled over a flower. Her body was still warm in his arms but the wound wasn't healing.

He didn't need to think too hard to understand what was happening. It was a punishment from the elder gods for their forbidden relationship. He wasn't a god, he wasn't a mortal. He was an original Sin! He was Corruption! He was a weapon that could be used against the Gods and provoke their demise. So of course, her people would never welcome him. She was an elder goddess, a goddess who predated the ancient gods. The very daughter of Gaea, the All-mother. The fragile beauty that was withering in his arms was the elder goddess of Hope. The one who explored the universe too far and ended up finding Pride. They couldn't have been more opposite and yet something brought them together. Something called « love ». Pride snapped his fingers and poofed them on the sofa near his desk. She would be more comfortable than on the floor, he thought to himself, but as he was petting her pink locks, she opened her eyes and stared at him with sadness and pain. They wouldn't have enough time to say goodbye if she didn't start to speak. She took his free hand and brought it to her heart, where the wound was.

« P-Pride. We don't have much time. »

« What's happening? » He asked, always with composure but his eyes were vibrantly blue and she could see the conflict and turmoil in his gaze. A faint smile crept on her lips and she nodded quietly.

« They're... punishing me...for falling in love.. with y-y-you. » she coughed blood and braced herself. « I'll live an eternal cycle of reincarnation...I'll be human forever. » She cupped his cheek with her blood-soaked hand and stroked it softly. « They don't want me to remember you. They want our love to die. »

« It's...Is there a thing I can do? I'm not familiar with this magic, I'm not familiar with..I'm sure we can do something. I could ask... » But she put her forefinger on his lips. Staining it with her blood.

« You will forget me Pr-Pride. We're meant to forget each other but... » She coughed again. « ..You know what? They forgot something...they forgot that love knows no bound....I will always find you. Wherever you are..in place..and time. »

She was fading away, her legs were vanishing, which meant the spell was being activated. He realized that they would never see each other again and worse, he would never remember her. The Sin started to shake nervously while his hand was stroking her cheek, trying to grasp the last minute they had together. He wanted to tell her again, how much she meant to him, how empty he would feel without her. How much she changed his life and turned a once lifeless and empty life into a thing of beauty. She gave him something he never thought of freedom. He never truly realized how much she meant to him until this very moment and the irony slapped him in the face in a matter of a millisecond. He didn't even care about his Father's motives, about the reason he was brought alive. He only cared about her and before he could say anything, she was taken away from him.

« I...love...you. » He muttered to her. Confused as for why he even said those words. He never said them, he never understood fully well why it was so important for her to whisper them any chance she got but it felt right to speak them. It felt right to let her know what he never said to her. He understood at that very moment everything and it hurt more than he could imagine. Her eyes grew wide and her golden orbs flashed a bright light before she whispered to him with the warmest smile she ever had.

« I know.  I always did. »

His eyes were now cerulean pools as emotion was overwhelming him. She vanished mere seconds after she said those words, only leaving behind remnants of her essence, the blue pixie dust that kept oozing from her body ever since she was wounded. His knees felt light now that there was no weight and he realized the cruelty of their punishment. He saw flashbacks of their life together, from their first meeting to the moment she confessed her feelings for him and his response back then. Then, all he could see was her smiles, over and over again and how her face lit up whenever she saw him. All he could remember was her warmth and how it felt to hold her hand or her body against his. All he could remember was his heartbeats increasing whenever she was near, how whole he felt by her sides. She was gone and he's never felt so alone in millennia.

He screamed, turning into a blue being of energy that blasted everything in his room. His siblings could hear him and for a brief moment, because he accidentally connected them together, they could feel his sadness although they didn't understand why. Alerted by this sudden burst of emotion, the siblings moved from their realms and arrived at his door. They noticed the pool of blood and when they opened the door, they found their brother back to normal and laid on his front. The spell had worked wonders and he didn't remember his beloved Elpis. Their lifetime together and bond had been permanently severed.

But did it?

Millennia later, circa the XXIst century, the young elder, still trapped within a human body gathered enough strength to manifest herself inside of her host. Memories appeared through dreams. Memories of him. The spell was weakened and there was a chance for both of the cursed lovers to find each other once again.

~.~ I will always find you, in this life or another. ~.~