GoT (regular): Johanna

 GoT (regular): Johanna

A/N: A little moment between Bäahal and herself.

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The silver princess  stared at her reflection on the vanity.  She brushed her hair, going slowly as she was looking at her reflection. Going outside and attending more of the family dinners together was actually having a good impact on her. She was very apprehensive about how these things would unfold but was relieved to see that not only did Jon and Tyrion helped lighten the mood and redirect the focus on other matters, but that her sister was also doing her best to make Bäahal comfortable. She had realized that the first serious conversation since her return had caused so much pain between the two of them that it became difficult to stay at the same place for a long while. Dany avoided her, and the few times they crossed paths, they exchanged the minimum of words possible. Daenerys had to do some soul searching before she decided what to do next. It just felt good to have her family around her and set her worries aside. 

Bäahal sighed and put the brush on the table. Her eyes warmed up as a memory of her time at Casterly Roc. She remembered the old maid who was assigned to her protection and care. Maid Johanna was a force of nature, a woman who was very observant and knew each and any of Tywin's children. She embraced the princess as soon as she was given to her. Her warm hands brought comfort to the silver haired princess, her wise words comforted her broken heart. Johanna restored the princess back to health. Through her care, the princess was able to find her appetite back and slowly started to trust others than Jaime and Lady Kyra.  The princess gently ran her hand over her soft cheek and  pressed a soft kiss to the wrist.  

Johanna was the one who induced hope in the princess' heart. She was the one who helped her realize that Jaime was not indifferent to her and that perhaps her feelings were requited as well. She told her stories about the young Golden Lion, about how he used to be, how he still was. Jaime had not changed that much over time. He was still a man of honour, a family man who would give everything he had to protect and serve his family. He came back to Lady Kyra with a desire to start anew. he finally accepted his feelings for the princess -although his first impulse was to drive her away from him out of love for her-.  Johanna noticed the concern in the face of her beautiful blonde boy. She could see the love he had for Bäahal, that bound him to her even more than duty ever did. He lwas in love with her, almost lost her and was now trying to protect her. 

Johanna knew.. and she tried to tell it to the younger woman. it worked somehow, enough for the princess to find the strength to stop hiding her feelings for the knight. She couldn't anyway, even if she wanted. The slave she used to be was no more and since she became free, Bäahal was more than honest. She wore her heart on her sleeve, literally spoke her mind, trusted people because they weren't the slavemasters and she was able to see in their eyes the truth.  She was able to see in Jaime the truth about him and this from the moment they first met.  Johanna was wise, Johanna realized that the princess was desperately in love with the Golden Lion and she wanted the best for him. 

Could it be that she connected two souls together? Could it be that her love for her "children" and affection for the princess helped her realize that she couldn't be away from the Knight for too long? At Casterly Rock upon recovering from the siege and her near-death experience, the Targaryen princess realized that she couldn't be happy with staying at the castle. She couldn't be happy if she had to give up on her love for the knight. She needed him to know she loved him and would always care for him, even if that was from a distance. a conversation happened there, a long and tearful conversation that left the two of them forever changed and aware of each other's true feelings. 

And along with it came the burden of such decision.  As the princess had stopped brushing her hair to look at her reflection, she put both hands on her cheeks and gently pressed them, as if she wanted to massage them. instead she sighed and a few tears she rolled down  her cheeks. the last couple weeks had been so intense that she couldn't have a decent sleep. instead she stayed awake for a long time, cried her eyes out and even had few moments of doubts. She found strength in the words Johanna gave her and in the comfort of her room, the silver princess was remembering this woman.  Her fingers wiped out the tears that rolled down her cheeks and smiled through them. This little memory reminded her of the fact Light always found a way, even in the darkest times. 

-TBC-