got modern: Are you ready?

 // Just a little moment between Bäahal and herself. is she ready for public attention? 

xxxx

Bäahal was lying on the bed, her face staring at her bedroom ceiling. Just moments ago she had been with Jaime Lannister, all cuddled up on his couch so they could watch a movie together. the moment was soft, warm, and desperately needed for the two of them. Jaime was dealing with Cersei's marital issues -mostly just listening to her and giving her some piece of advice- and he had to deal with even more business meetings since it was nearly the end of the fiscal year.  Bäahal, on the other hand, had to deal with a very nasty relative who had tried to destroy her family's reputation and the legacy of her father. For the first time in a long while, the three siblings managed to get along together but the rumors that went on, especially about Bäahal, ended up hurting the young woman. So she found herself needing comfort. Jaime had obliged her and had welcomed the young woman in his arms for the weekend. 

Jaime Lannister...It became clear that Bäahal had been longing for the two of them to come clean and be out in public. She slowly started to get impatient to take him out to dinner, or to any of her dance competitions. She wanted to share her life, without thinking twice about what she could do and what she couldn't do. Bäahal ran her hands through her silver locks and closed her eyes. Jaime was... Jaime had a violent streak she had not suspected he had. She already went through a very jealous Jaime, who didn't like the fact Bronn called him to tell all of his raunchy thoughts about the heiress. He had stopped talking to her and waited until a couple weeks to answer her text.  That already hurt. The Lannister had a sharp tongue too, one she couldn't forget about because his words cut deeply.

That was okay. She could handle him. What she had not anticipated, however, was Jaime's potential for violence. After she narrowly escaped an assault at a party, Jaime decided to beat the senses back into that man. He went to see him a couple days after. The conversation turned into confrontation and Jaime came back with his fists soaked in blood and blood stains on his shirt. Bäahal was horrified, mostly because she realized how hot-headed Jaime was and how he could get into trouble because he acted before thinking. He could have gotten injured, maybe something worse but more than anything, the level of anger he unleashed that day had been unheard of. 

She was scared, for a while. Memories of her own abuse at the hands of her brother came back. She remembered when he would lash out at her and beat the living crap out of her and flashes of her own blood on his fists, on the floor, on her clothes came back. Could Jaime be violent with her? Could he lose his temper one day and hit her like he did that man? Jaime realized that she was scared, both for him and because of him, so he quickly tried to reassure her. He had washed his arms, changed his clothes, and cleaned his face. he had talked to her, most of the night just so she could see that he wouldn't hurt her. He lost his temper, yes, he lost it because someone had tried to hurt her and he wasn't there to protect her. He loved her, and because he did, he had to make sure that this creep would never hurt her again.  

That was okay. She could work with it. Jaime was a hothead. He was impulsive, but he was loving. He cared for her. He loved her and she found comfort in knowing that. She loved him too and she didn't mind this personality trait. After all, weren't they all flawed individuals? He didn't kill that man and he wasn't out for blood, so she was alright. She bit her bottom lip and ran her hands over her face. She wanted Jaime. She loved him with all of her heart and she felt she was ready to go public with him. At least, in her heart. He asked her to keep things for themselves for the time being because Tywin wouldn't let up. He wouldn't approve of this relationship nor would Daenerys and Viserys approve of it. Maybe it was a good thing to keep to themselves for the time being. 

Maybe...

-TBC-