Forgive Yourself

 Forgive yourself,

A/N: I am too exhausted to explain. I am sorry. 

Forgive yourself for the days you weren't strong enough, (Because we can't always be strong)

Forgive yourself for the days you gave up (I'm glad you're still alive)

Forgive yourself for not loving yourself enough (You will learn)

Forgive yourself for not being « that person », (you are your person)

Forgive yourself for your suicidal tendencies (because you're not doing it for attention)

Forgive yourself for not wanting to be under the spotlight (sometimes it's good to be acknowledged)

Forgive yourself for having weaknesses (we're both strengths and weaknesses. Don't be ashamed)

Forgive yourself for needing help (Even Goliaths need help)

Forgive yourself for not trying to ask for it, when you clearly need it (You will be able to someday)

Forgive yourself for not reaching your goals (it happens)

Forgive yourself for not meeting up your impossible expectations (You're too hard on yourself)

Forgive yourself for being different (you are unique)

Forgive yourself for being afraid of the unknown (You could have it good too)

Forgive yourself for being afraid of those things you do know (end the harmful patterns)

Forgive yourself for having meltdowns (you can't help them)

Forgive yourself for sometimes forgetting to take care of yourself (Eat, drink, take your meds)

Forgive yourself for your insomnia (how can one sleep when one hears their thoughts?)

Forgive yourself for your lack of trust in yourself (you will learn)

Forgive yourself for your lack of trust in others (You will learn)

Forgive yourself for your PTSD (You can't help it)

Forgive yourself for wanting yourself dead and your suicidal tendencies (Because you matter !)

Forgive yourself for your failures (and learn from them)

Forgive yourself for blaming yourself for the abuse you were a victim of (it is not your fault)

Forgive yourself for thinking you deserve to be punished for simply existing (you do not!)

Forgive yourself for thinking you will never be enough (because you are)

Forgive yourself for thinking you are ugly (your heart isn't darkness, you take care of your body)

Forgive yourself for repeating the same destructive path (this text is proof you're fighting!)

Forgive yourself for ignoring your own needs (including your own sexual desires, cause they exist)

Forgive yourself for ignoring the good you do (because you are not the summation of your failures)

Forgive yourself for hiding your pain (because you want to protect everyone BUT yourself)

Forgive yourself for wanting more (you only had crumbles of love in your life, you deserve more)

Forgive yourself for being shit scared of losing everything and everyone (real love doesn't leave)

Forgive yourself for silencing your fears (because ignoring them is enforcing them!)

Forgive yourself for feeling that pain burning inside (pain you still can't understand)

Forgive yourself for being scared of being happy (you won't lose it once you get it)

Forgive yourself for blaming yourself to have dreams and hopes (because you can have them)

Forgive yourself for running away from happiness because you don't know what it is

Forgive yourself because you can't always be a superhuman, you can't gloss over your pain,

you can't ignore it. You can't go around believing you only deserve shit because you're shit yourself, you can't do that to yourself and it pains me that you do. It pains me every time you go silent and you take punishment, it pains me that you think you deserve to be punished. And you would go on, lying to yourself about being fine and alright when you know deep down that it isn't true. You will go on, with a smile and the next day you would be gone. Forgive yourself beautiful, forgive yourself ! You can't be willing to send love to anyone but yourself, you can't keep on starving yourself emotionally, you can't keep on doing this to yourself. Forgive yourself! Not for anyone but yourself. Forgive yourself! Because it's a big important step forward. Forgive yourself!