He ran his fingers through her silver mane and searched for her gaze. She gave him a sheepish smile and planted a kiss on the tip of his nose. A smile graced her feature as she kissed his nose again before rolling on her side to bare her back at him. He wrapped one powerful arm around her waist and rolled on his side so they could assume a spooning position. To think he actually lost her too many times to count now had made him aware of how much he refused to be alone now. It wasn't because « he deserved it » No! It was that selfish need to be loved, the yearning for a touch, the longing for a kiss, and the desperate search for someone's warmth.
Jaime wasn't that perfect man who was willing to sacrifice himself for the sake of his House without actually having a couple of regrets. He would give his life, anytime, anywhere if it was to do his duty but he was tired of sacrificing everything. he was tired of being lonely. He did spend decades obsessed with Cersei. He gave her his heart, his life, and everything he had only to have his heart crushed into pieces. The Knight tried to convince himself that it was meant to be and lost himself even more in his duty. He was a fool though because as much as he would have liked it not to hurt him, it had.
With Bäahal, things were different, she was different. He couldn't say he fell in love with her at first sight because it would not be true. What Jaime did feel when they first met was more a fondness he couldn't quite name. He wanted her to survive. He wanted her to live. His feelings for her came much later. She was loyal, innocent, and genuine. She kept going, and no matter how hard her life was, she kept going and she tried to give hope to those around her. Bäahal was warm against him, she was soft and loving and she soothed his pain. He couldn't quite know why or how she was doing it, but being next to her allowed him to find peace and he refused to trade it for all the riches of the world.
Romantic much? Maybe simply it was just a selfish desire. The very one she felt whenever Jaime was involved in something. He made her heartbeat go faster, He took her breath away but most importantly, he made her feel safe. SAFE! The young princess smiled at him and quietly whispered to Jaime as she realized she would soon fall asleep.« You know... no matter what happens to me, the mere thought you will always be there is enough to drive me. I love you. Tremendously. » She said as she closed her eyes again and snuggled up better against the Golden Lion who leaned his chin on top of her shoulder.
« I love you too, my princess. »
Was all he needed to say as he kept his arm around her frame, protective of her as he refused to let her exit his life again.
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