Real love feels like a sucker punch. You never really recover from it and it stays with you forever. And then you grow smarter as you get older and you try to keep your feelings to yourself to avoid being knocked out once again by Love. Ah, you try and try and try as hard as you can to remain in control.
Unfortunately, Love is sneaky, Love is stronger than you can ever be. Even when you are on your best day, Love is smarter and stronger than you. It finds ways in the cracks ...of your heart and pulls you with it to unknown places.
Unfortunately, Love is sneaky, Love is stronger than you can ever be. Even when you are on your best day, Love is smarter and stronger than you. It finds ways in the cracks ...of your heart and pulls you with it to unknown places.
Sure, we learn with time that painful love stories were worth living and you learn from them and you can't predict when something would turn sour and bad. Maybe that's true. We also do learn that not everyone is the same and you might have been with abusive assholes before, you might meet someone who treats you right and loves you right and you should let go. Maybe so.
But when you are walking in some people shoes, the scary and the hardcore part of love isn't what they are the most afraid of. No. They know the darkness for they've experienced it. They can endure pain and move on because they've known it. What truly scares them is the good. The good people who care about them. The real love that is given to them. The attention and affection and those perfect blissful moments are dreaded because they might go.
And what is worse than being given a taste of Paradise and have it denied to you straight after?
So what do you do to avoid being broken furthermore? you hide, you keep your heart to yourself and you deny any feeling that you might feel in fear of losing it.
Being happy is what scares you because you never knew how to handle it or to accept it.
But...despite all of that, give it a try. Walk slowly the walk. Allow yourself that taste of happiness because you so deserve to be loved. you deserve to be listened to, acknowledged and taken care of. You deserve to see yourself through the eyes of those who love you. You deserve to experience it, even if there is a risk you would lose everything.
But when you are walking in some people shoes, the scary and the hardcore part of love isn't what they are the most afraid of. No. They know the darkness for they've experienced it. They can endure pain and move on because they've known it. What truly scares them is the good. The good people who care about them. The real love that is given to them. The attention and affection and those perfect blissful moments are dreaded because they might go.
And what is worse than being given a taste of Paradise and have it denied to you straight after?
So what do you do to avoid being broken furthermore? you hide, you keep your heart to yourself and you deny any feeling that you might feel in fear of losing it.
Being happy is what scares you because you never knew how to handle it or to accept it.
But...despite all of that, give it a try. Walk slowly the walk. Allow yourself that taste of happiness because you so deserve to be loved. you deserve to be listened to, acknowledged and taken care of. You deserve to see yourself through the eyes of those who love you. You deserve to experience it, even if there is a risk you would lose everything.
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