Judith le Fay: "You are not a faery."

Judith le Fay: "You are not a faery."

// I really love my little Judith. She's learned the truth about her lineage and has been granted the right to leave Faeryland to stop Morgan Le Fay.  Still, she's in shock. 

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Judith was sitting by the fire, her grey eyes seemed to be focused on the flames and were oblivious to her two companions who were sitting across her. Tinkerbell glanced at Eric, the young knight and ally who met the fairy during one of her travels. He was a handsome lad, with short brown hair and ocean-blue eyes. When she met him for the first time, Tinkerbell didn't know he was a knight given how lightly he traveled. If he wasn't carrying a sword, she would have mistaken him with a civilian. They became travel companions and as soon as they learned the true nature of Judith's lineage, Tinkerbell returned home and asked for a meeting with the Faery Godmother to share her new findings. Cornered, the Blue Faery summoned Judith (known as Ada in Faeryland) and decided to tell the truth. Ada...was in fact Judith Le Fay, the daughter of Morgan Le Fay and one of Merlin's apprentices, the knight Archibald Melkior. The baby was born with a tremendous magical potential her mother planned to use against Merlin, which prompted the father to take her to safety.  Tinkerbell witnessed Judith's reaction. She saw the pain painted on her face, the anger that washed over her, and the strength it took for the young girl not to lash out at the Blue Faery.  

"Stop looking at her, Eric!"

"I don't think she's with us right now! She has that faraway look on her face. Why?" -He retorted before he took a bite of the apple he was holding in his hand-

"Why? She just learned that she wasn't a faery but the daughter of one of the worst enchantresses in the world. Her mother is Merlin's sworn enemy  who wanted to use her to hurt him."

"So she should be pissed off right now, not... shocked!" -He complained while his blue eyes averted from Judith to Tinkerbelle. The veteran faery had tied her hair in a loose high bun and was wearing a green cotton shirt a pair of dark green leather pants and high brown boots. She rolled her eyes and hit him with her elbow.-

"Why are you so dense, Eric? I have told you that faery society is ruthless. You're born a faery and you have to prove yourself all your damn life. There are rituals to achieve when you come of age, to fully become part of society. Ad---Judith mastered Magic. She's powerful, so powerful that no other faery could reach her level save for the Faery Godmother. Magic isn't enough to become a faery. You have to have wings, among other things and she never got hers. She never got hers."

Tinkerbelle knitted her brows as she glanced at the young enchantress. If one thing was true, it was the shock she received upon learning the truth. She had a lot of answers to the questions that had plagued her all of her life. She wasn't a faery by blood but that didn't mean that she couldn't /be/ a faery. So what if her mother was one of the worst enchantresses in the whole world? What if she was the spawn of evil? Did that mean that she should be judged based on who her parents were? Did that mean, that without wings she couldn't be a true Faery? Judith refused to accept it. She considered herself to be a faery, a powerful one, and a force of good. Yes, her magic tapped into the Darkness! Yes, she had a temper! But none of these things defined her. She knew what was the content of her heart and she took to heart the lessons from her adoptive mother, the Faery Godmother. Judith insisted on leaving the homeland because she had to see for herself the world. She had to stop her mother and save Merlin. She had to know more about herself, her father, and his deeds. She needed to leave so she could come back on her own terms. 

She had answers yet her heart was still bleeding inside.  How did it feel to know that you were once desired by both your parents and that for a brief moment, your mother actually loved you more than she hated Merlin? How did it feel to know that her love for you wasn't enough to save her from her hatred? How did it feel to know your father took you to safety, saved you from a certain death at the hand of your mother, and lost his own life by doing so? Judith was confused by the news. She was angry at her mother for what she did. She was angry at her father for not telling the truth to Morgan Le Fay upon meeting her. Should she have known that he was an apprentice of Merlin, perhaps she shouldn't have had his child.. perhaps she wouldn't have tried to use Judith as a sacrifice to kill Merlin. Perhaps... so many things would have been different but she was born and she wanted to live so there was no time for mopping around and wishing things to be different.  Her grey eyes set upon the blonde Faery and she gave her soft nod. 

"I just want you to know, Tink, that I am committed to saving Merlin."

"Good to know Judith, but that means you might be fighting your... Morgan Le Fay. Are you sure you can handle it?"

"She wanted me to be the instrument of Merlin's death, well... this time I choose to be the instrument of her own demise. I've got this Tink." She then tilted her head to stare at Eric. "Are you sure /you/ have what it takes, Eric?"

"I am a knight, Judith. I run towards danger, not the other way round." -She smiled faintly and shrugged- "What? You don't believe me?"

"You could die, young knight. You would most certainly die. Morgan le Fay doesn't spare anyone and if we get to meet her, you being a knight might tickle her the wrong way. You will become a target and she will try to kill you."

"I'm not afraid!"

"You should be!" She lashed out at her, before pulling the duvet around her body for the cold night got even colder. "The good thing is... If you are serious about fighting her, then you have found the best ally you could ever dream of. I won't let her kill you."

"Aren't you... afraid to die?" -He asked, blushing despite his best efforts. She nodded, which took both Tinkerbelle and Eric aback.- "Then.. why are you doing this?"

"We are brave because we do things despite fear. I won't hide my emotions because nothing good comes from hiding oneself. I am terrified of death! Still, this won't stop me from doing the right thing. I have the power to stop her, my magic is far more powerful than any of the faeries. I must do what's right and that includes, sacrificing my life to save the world. I am still scared as all hell.. but who isn't?"

She sighed and ran her hand through her hair before she looked back at the fire. Tinkerbelle held onto Eric's shoulder and squeezed it gently. It was his cue to stop talking and to give Judith some space. The truth was, she wasn't a faery and she had to deal with the knowledge of her lineage. She wasn't afraid to die, but she was afraid of being fooled by her mother and straying from her mission in the hope of having some maternal love. 

-TBC-