got regular Bäahal: headcanon

Headcanon Marriage: 

Bäahal thought marriage was a duty. She didn't know that one could marry out of love. The relationship between Dany and Jon opened her eyes. She realized that Marriage could be the union between two souls that truly loved each other. She fell in love with Jaime and naturally, she wants to marry him. 

However, she's not naive enough not to realize that her union would bring them a lot of issues. She is ready to face any consequence, any trial, anything that would stand in their way. To Bäahal, Marriage goes beyond just her love for Jaime. Marrying him is an oath. She would protect him, she would care for him. She would make sure that he is happy. Marrying Jaime and taking his name, also puts on her shoulders the weight of his family. She would carry it, alongside his children but she is ready to do so.  She is Jaime's and he is hers. Their lives are entwined and she would do anything in her power to give him the life he deserves (a good life) 

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headcanon Heartbreak: 

Oh... You know Bäahal has had a very difficult life. She was born in slavery. Her mother died while trying to protect her. She was forced to bed her master's best clients and entertain them through dance. She had to kill her master's enemies despite her desire to take lives. She had suffered the abuse all slaves suffered from and had been branded on her shoulder blades. 

She always tried to build herself back up and managed to do so, only to be hurt some more. Viserion was killed, Missandei was killed, and to make things even worse, she nearly lost Jaime Lannister. She discovered love and rejection and was betrayed by the bodyguards who were supposed to be her friends. The siege is her biggest trauma because she nearly died that day. She nearly died, felt hungry, and lost weight to a dramatic level. 

And what about her forbidden love for Jaime Lannister? They love each other, have yearned for each other, and had not been able to act on those feelings because Jaime wasn't allowed to be with her. Even love was not allowed for her.  Bäahal is heartbroken and she's very expressive. You'll know when she's upset, you'll see her cry. you'll see her sob. Bäahal doesn't hold back and never hides her true emotions.