Oya Headcanons

Headcanon: Marriage

Well, Oya has been engaged in the past, so it's not something that scares her. she just didn't think about it once she set foot in America.  After years of spending time with the Winchesters and finding a family in Team Free Will, Oya is now comfortable again with the idea of having a Family and being a wife. She is planning to propose to Dean someday, in the most Doya way, which means,  without any artifices and games. Just casually talking about wanting to share her life with him. The life they have right now. An Apple Pie Life. 

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Headcanon: Heartbreak

Oya has had her fair share of pain. It's actually been a long string of disappointment, heartbreak, and loss. She had to watch one too many people die on her watch. She had watched her former fiancé fall out of love with her because she couldn't have children anymore. She had to kill him with her own bare hands once he became possessed by a demon. She nearly lost her life too while fighting the demon that killed her family, but Dean came in and rescued her. Oya wears scars on her arms, as a reminder of her recklessness and of everything she's lost. 

Oya used to be a daredevil. She used to be a death-seeker who couldn't see past her revenge. She is not very good at hiding her emotions from her family but any other stranger would be fooled. They would not have her tears or her nightmares. They wouldn't be able to tell just how much pain she went through. Dean would because Dean went through his own heartbreaks. He knows the job, he knows the loss. He knows everything she's been through because he went through the same. He would notice her sadness and he would know when to come and soothe her. 

These days, what hurts her the most is the fact she doesn't remember the faces and the voices of her loved ones. She feels guilty because to her it is as if she had forgotten about them and betrayed them. So it hurts, but she doesn't speak about it unless Dean is asking.