// Ayasha is afraid and no amount of knowledge is going to save her from what's about to happen.
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Ayasha was curled up in her bed, her hair was disheveled and tangled. She had not been out of her bedroom for weeks as she refused to step out until she had found a solution to the "Elpis problem" that had arisen. She was scared of being visited by another black butterfly that would announce the upcoming death of someone close to her -or her-. A black butterfly was the worst news she could receive. It was a message from Fate, something that could not be changed no matter what they did. She received one, a while before Leviathan's death and was afraid to get another. Besides, she knew from her brother that Gaea would not join them in their fight against Elpis. Why did she do something like this? Why did she take such a stupid decision? Elpis was getting stronger and she was so powerful that there was no doubt that she would outmatch Ayasha. When it came to raw power, it was a no-brainer, Elpis was far more powerful than any of her siblings. If she was correct and if Elpis had discovered her untapped power, then it only was a matter of time before she reached her true potential.
What was left for her then? Threatening the life of Elpis' former vessel didn't work, she had no idea of the extent of Elpis' true abilities and she didn't know if Gaea would be the first to be attacked or if her sister would first come to the Primordial Garden. Oh, how the tables have turned! Ayasha realized that her plan wasn't fool-proofed and that she didn't take into consideration the numerous hiccups that could make her plan obsolete. She didn't take into consideration that the Sin could actually grow feelings, even less for her sister. She didn't take into consideration that Elpis would find out the truth about her powers and the reasons her family raised her as being an obedient creature. They were afraid of how the world could turn if Elpis became her true self. They didn't want to be replaced by her, nor did they want her to wage wars, and take the path she was taking now. Ayasha knew her sister had ambitions. She knew her sister would manage to make them happen, after all, she managed to be with Pride. She managed to make him feel something those weapons weren't supposed to be feeling. She managed to accomplish the impossible.
So what now? Her armor and god-killing weapon were being forged as she was spiraling in her bedroom. She would be ready for the next attack, but for the first time in a long while, Ayasha didn't know how things could unfold. She didn't know what the outcome of the all-out war would be. Would they be victorious or would they lose? She didn't know. Would Ishtar even go through with his desire to eliminate Elpis or would he fall prey to his deep-rooted love for his sister? Ayasha wasn't sure. They both were haunted by their guilt, by the regrets they had about what they did, and by the ghosts of those they wished to eliminate. Elpis taunted Ayasha, exposing her heart and the failure of her plans to the goddess who blamed herself for her shortcomings. All of this could have been avoided if she was the one who stabbed Elpis. She would have killed her sister a long time ago and the only war to be had, would have been the one against the Sins. But she trusted her brother. She trusted her manipulative power, she trusted her plan and it backfired on her.
Why wouldn't it do the same thing here? in the present? in this war against her sister? There was an unsettling feeling that overcame the goddess and nearly defeated her before the war even began. There was that feeling that got her bones cold, that made her stomach churn, that made her sweat at night, in fear of receiving the visit of a black butterfly or eventually the hallucinations of her sister Elpis who would taunt her at night. She was pale, paler than she used to be and she refused to let anyone see her in that state of mind. The truth was... oh the truth was that Ayasha was terrified of the War. She was scared of her sister and she was afraid to die. She didn't want to disappear into the void and the simple thought of becoming nothing made her sick. Ishtar was still on Earth, simply informing Ayasha that their mother declined their extended hand and that they should prepare in case Elpis killed Gaea and took her power. Ishtar was still away and nothing could soothe the goddess of knowledge.. nothing... no one...
-TBC-
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