COPG: life and Death of Ishtar: Dreams and nightmares

COPG: life and Death of Ishtar: Dreams and nightmares

 // Welp... Ishtar wanted to speak, so I let him :p 

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Ishtar resumed walking among mortals, part of his heart wanted to find Elpis and reason with her. He wanted her to come back home and join forces against Pride. Ayasha informed him of the victory of the sins Lust and Pride over the rest of their siblings and their current affairs with the Greek Pantheon. He knew that it would only be a matter of time before Pride, Lust, and his sister would raid the Primordial Garden and he refused to accept that she couldn't be reasoned with.  It was clear that she had become more powerful since she was set free. He only felt her once, but her surge of power was so intense that nobody could have missed her. Ishtar realized that she discovered her true potential and was tapping into it, empowering herself to levels rivaling those of Gaea.  Ayasha told him that she had received the visit of a black butterfly on the day their brother died and she was scared of receiving another visit. What would she do? who would die? she refused to know and she was spending her days locked in her room.

He wished he could talk to her and convince her to follow him instead of staying with the Sin. What could possibly bring Pride to the goddess??? He was unable to feel anything and Elpis was a goddess who felt deeply. She needed someone to love her, to worship her, to make her feel like she was the only goddess in the whole universe. Pride made her believe things that were not true. He probably promised her things he wouldn't be able to give Elpis and she would end up disappointed. His obsession with Elpis didn't stop, not even after he made up with Ayasha, not even after Gaea rejected his last offer. Elpis was still in his mind. He didn't know how she looked like today, he had not felt her presence in millennia nor heard her voice so he could only rely on his memories of his sister. They overwhelmed him. They haunted him and he couldn't escape those. He couldn't escape his own desires and was wondering if he didn't end up being the one cursed by the knife. He couldn't kill Elpis and perhaps, that was the reason for the dreams and nightmares. 

Elpis, the most beautiful creature of the universe, with her sensual voice that whispered in his ear. Elpis, with her generous curves that drove him wild, even now. He was craving her, even now. He wanted her soft voice, her warmth and the soft curves of her body against his strong hands. He wanted to hear her moan, submit to his will and desires. It was driving him mad to know that he could never have her because someone else had claimed her before. It was driving him mad to hear her taunt him, haunt him and remind him of what he had lost because he had betrayed her. Why did he do something so stupid? Killing his father hasn't bothered the god, but betraying Elpis made him feel cursed. He was in love with her but obsessed would probably be more accurate. He was "in love" with her and couldn't reconcile what he did with what he wanted.  So walking among humans helped him find the comfort he couldn't get from Ayasha. At least, among them, he felt at home. 

-TBC-