GoT (modern): Disenchantment

 GoT modern : Disenchantment

 

A/N: Welp…. I love them so much. You can’t blame me for this :p this one is, however, rather sad but necessary. Bäahal needs to see the bad in order to appreciate the good she has with Jaime and Kyra. 

Xxx

 

Sunday, 4 pm,  The Targaryen Palace.

 

 

Bäahal was sitting on one of the garden’s benches. She took Drogon and Rhaegal out for a nice walk and let them loose in the green. She watched from afar as they were running after one another, barking, playing, and cuddling. She was wearing casual clothes, a pair of black leggings and a grey sweatshirt. Her hair was tied on a messy bun and she had her phone on her lap. Her purple eyes were scanning the screen that was buzzing with notifications. Social media was on fire that day. Her siblings made the headlines, as usual. Yet this time, she felt that they have been a little more discreet than usual. There was no scandal involving Viserys, no headlines about the « Silver Queen » Daenerys Targaryen. No, this time, they simply spotted her siblings to very neutral places -restaurants, theatres- and in the best company possible. For once, there was no story about how terrible Bäahal had been this week or the latest issue she had with another heir or heiress. For once she wasn’t even in those tabloids which had her sigh in relief.

 

It wasn’t usual for her not to have her name slandered in the press. Tabloids were there for a reason and it was to give the mean-spirited souls a means to mock the celebrities and feel superior. So many rumors went on about her supposed surprise pregnancy at the hands of a random sexual partner. So many rumors went on about her supposed homosexuality and some even said she was part of a racist cult that used her for sexual race-play. And when rumors weren’t of a sexual nature, they speculated about the circumstances of her birth or spoke about the traumatic childhood she had with her step-family.  Most of the time Bäahal ignored them, especially when they brought Elia's topic back to the spotlight. She had suffered enough at the hands of those bastards cried her heart out, bled open until she moved on. it was very difficult to have her life exposed like that, to see her wounds and shortcomings.

 

One day, a distant relative told the press she was nicknamed « Lonely » by her late step-mother and since then, whenever Bäahal faced some hardship, she had the name plastered all over the news. She learned to ignore it over time, but it still pinched her heart to read her name and the vile words attached to it. She noticed that it hit even differently to read the headlines regarding Jaime and Kyra Lannisters. A while ago, she wouldn’t have cared for those words. And what about Jaime and his supposed incestuous relationship with his twin? what about Kyra and her latest scandal involving a suitor she turned down? what about Jaime’s supposed affair with a model she hadn’t heard about?  well…today she took each headline at heart. She didn’t like the way the media treated both Jaime and Kyra. She hated the fact they were scrutinizing their bodies, commenting on it as if they owned it. She reviled the false rumors about the Lannister family and the « scandals » hidden by the mainstream media. It took a turn to the gross and the conspiracies because people couldn’t fathom such a fortune and needed to shit on the name. It also strangely turned into an obsession, especially when a relationship was suspected. Bäahal hated reading those headlines when it came to Jaime.

 

She scrolled down the news, relieved to see that there was nothing about a potential affair with a model. There was, however, a big headline she read: « Interview with the new oil tycoon Elias Sand of Dornes: his wedding, his business and the fantastic regimen he follows for his good looks ». Elias Sand….Elias…her ex. the tagline that was supposed to be his quote nearly gave her a heart—attack « leaving Bäahal Targaryen was the best and worst thing I’ve ever done. » Her heart sank deep and she put the phone away for a minute. Her eyes filled with unshed tears and she could feel her heartbeats go faster and harder inside her ribcage. Should she read this article? She checked again the name of the newspaper that headlined such an article and found that it was the Westeros Times, a really serious newspaper. Her lips trembled and she put the phone away once again. Why was he still having such an impact on her after all those years? why was she hurting still?

 

She tapped her knee with her fingers, going faster and faster as anxiety overwhelmed her. She had to take a look, read what he said. She had to help her heart heal from what he did to her. Elias used to be the love of her life, the man she was going to marry, the one she wanted to build a life with, and he destroyed everything without much of an explanation. He just left her, screamed at her that she wasn’t worthy of his love nor time. He managed to keep his distance from her and she was able to heal and move on. She was able to put him behind her, rebuild her confidence, lookout for the best and try and be happy. Jaime happened and he truly helped her blossom into a better version of herself. She had moved on and accepted that he had chosen a different path. She was fine with him getting married, she was even fine with him staying at Dornes. What she wasn’t fine with, was to still have her name attached to his. She didn’t want to be reminded of what she lost but rather what she gained. And he had the audacity to bring her name back?

 

Finally, Bäahal flipped her phone over and started to read the article. It was everything she feared it would be. A low blow, a punch in the guts. He had just listed all the success he had since he broke up with Bäahal, stated that she was holding him back, and didn’t allow him to mature enough to make his own business. He stated that he was a far happier man since he left her and met his wife. Oh, he got married and she was able to see the pictures of the lavish wedding they had and the smiles on his sweet wife’s face. A Westerosi.. he married a Westerosi after he told her that he wouldn’t and she was the only one who made him fall in love. This…this she couldn’t take. As she silently cried, the silver-haired woman kept reading his interview, would he say something positive about her ? would he at least acknowledge that it was hard to part ways with her ?  the more she read, the more Bäahal realized he wasn’t going to say anything good about their relationship. He called it puppy love. He said that she was the first person to ever love him and this love allowed him to be ready for true love: his wife. Bäahal threw her phone against a tree, smashing the screen as she slid her finger into her hair and started to scream and cry harder. What an asshole! what a terrible cunt! how could he say something like this? why was he lying? why was he lying ??????? why was he right ???

 

-TBC-