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Friday, August 1, 2025

Into the badlands : casting

"Crazy Baron" Red Baron: Eric. Ed Harris (young)
Red Baroness: Laura Joely Richardson
Red Baron's Regent: Frey  Zack Mclaron 
Dead Clipper/ Nana's sister: Naomi.  Sophie Brown.
Dead Clipper's friend who tried to help her escape: Kyle.  Lloyd Everitt
Cog, friend who betrayed Naomi: Crys. Ella Rumpf
Red Baron's former obsession/ victim: Dany. Crystal Yu

Green Baroness: Eleonora Razane Jamal
Clipper and Bodyguard: Isa.   Melissanthi Mahut
Green  Baron heir/ Baroness' step-son: Hector.  Douglas Booth.
Wife of Green Baron Heir: Lyta. (Hippolyta) Bel Powler. 

White Baroness: Olivia. Jenna Coleman. 
White Baroness's husband: Cole. Laurence O'Fuarain
White Baroness's Mistress: Marion. Niamh Walsh


yellow Baron's Cog (in love with him): Fleur.  Lily Travers
Doll and friend of Nana: Sky. Esme Creed-Miles
Madam of the dollhouse: Etta (Henrietta) Claire Higgins
Head of the house cogs: Sulita. Dinita Gohil

// These characters belong to me. The tv show (into the badlands) belongs to their respective owners. I just had a lot of fun with the universe. 

Into the Badlands profile OC Nana

// I saw the tv show and loved it. I'm writing a profile just for the love of it. nothing serious about it. 


Main Faceclaim: Yara Yashidi.

Other FC: Kiki Layne

Name: Nana

Birth Name: Yue [Pronounced You-Hey]

Age: 25 years old.

Nationality: Inhabitant of the badlands.

Height: 162 cm 

Weight: 60 kg

Special features: Nana has warm, vibrant amber eyes. She also has burn scars on her left arm that are completely covered with bandages at all times.  Her voice is soft and compelling. 

Physical appearance:  Nana is a beautiful woman with coily black hair she sometimes styles with braids. She is curvy but hides her curves under heavy fabric. She has plump lips, an almond-shaped face with delicate features. Despite the harsh childhood she had, she retained her beauty and soft skin (save for the burned left arm), so much so that it caught the eye of a Baron who forced her to go to his palace and serve as his personal chef. 

Sexual orientation: Heterosexual

Alignment: Chaotically good. She wants to help others. She will never let anyone go hungry as either.

Occupation/ Status: Cog (Cook at a Dollhouse)


Abilities: 

  • High Pain Tolerance: Due to her traumatic childhood, Nana has a high pain tolerance. She can endure torture and physical violence. 

Skills: 

  • Gifted Intellect: Nana is a very clever woman. She's very observant and aware of her surroundings and situation. She avoided becoming a doll because she could notice the interests others had in her and find ways to redirect them onto someone else.
  • Skilled cook: Nana is an excellent cook. So much so that she rivals professional cooks with no formal training and very ordinary ingredients. 

Weaknesses/Crippling fears:

  • Gullible: Nana is a very optimistic woman. She is so determined to find her sister and believes that Naomi is alive that she doesn't realize how easily she could die or be done worse by people who are aware of what she really wants. It had been used as a bargaining chip and forced her into trouble more than once. 

Family:

  • Mother: [name redacted. Deceased]
  • Father: [name redacted. Deceased.]
  • sister: [Naomi, Deceased]

Universe:   Into the Badlands.

Status:  Alive. Active.


Personality:

Nana is very clever. She's also determined and stubborn and would stop at nothing to have a chance at seeing her sister again. She is naive, not so much about the world she lives in, but she believes that there is good in people, as much good as there is bad. She also believes that some people are genuinely good people who want to help others and do good around them - just like her.- She also believes people who claim to know where her sister is, or at least, claim to have information about Naomi's whereabouts, and don't see ulterior motives. For two decades, she managed to avoid being forced into becoming a doll by using her skills, but she's well aware that one bad move and she could become a doll. That's what forced her to become observant and cunning, in a bid to survive without being turned into a doll. Nana is well aware of the type of violence that could be done to women in that world, but always managed to avoid it, by sheer luck most of the time and by a clever quip a few times. 


She is a good listener, brave, and easily admires new things she encounters. She's very curious about how the world was before the Great War, but she is also aware that asking questions could get her in trouble. Because of her traumatic childhood, she also plasters a lot of fake smiles because she refuses to look back and truly face her emotions. Deep down... perhaps, she knows that Naomi is dead, but admitting it would crush her spirit, and she might never recover from it until she knows for sure that her sister is dead. She can't give up on her, now can she? 



Fictional Character Biography: 


Naomi and Yue were the children of a cog family living on the land of the White Baron. When Naomi turned 7, she was sold along with other cogs to the Red Baron. Her parents at the time took it without making a fuss, as it was the way things were. They were cogs after all.  Yet, she watched as her parents slowly faded away, with her father becoming a violent drunk at night and beating both her mother and her, and with her no better mother as guilt for watching her daughter be sold, ate at her.  She burned Yue and decided to call her Nana when the girl was 6 years old, in a desperate attempt to make her less desirable to a Baron, so she could be kept at the service of the White Baron.  She couldn't explain herself because her husband was so angry that he ended up killing her in a fit of rage. He was later turned into a slave, forced to carry heavy loads for the clippers. She was left to fend for herself and was bullied, beaten up, and betrayed by the children and adults living around. It didn't stop her from being sold when she turned 7, just like her sister, to the Yellow Baron. 


She managed to survive by offering her help and showing peculiar skills that prevented her from being thrown into a dollhouse. She was taken care of by a street merchant, who took her as an apprentice and taught her everything he knew about cooking. He waited until she turned 15 to try and make her his wife -complete with threats of kicking her out and sending her on the streets to work as a doll-. Her luck had the madam of the dollhouse listening in one day they were arguing in public, and she offered to take the girl. He made her pay a hefty price -which she did- and they parted ways there. Etta, short for Henrietta, put Nana through the grinder but also ensured her safety and well-being. All these years, Nana thought about her big sister Naomi. She managed to hear rumours of a female clipper called Naomi who was quickly making a name for herself in the Red Baron territories. It was enough to make her want to join her sister, now that she knew she was still alive. 


Nana worked tirelessly and tried to come up with a plan that could make her leave the Yellow Baron's territory to join the Red Baron's territory, but each plan fell flat because she didn't have the resources or the right intel. She didn't give up. Perhaps one day, she would be reunited with her sister. 



Current history:

One day, due to a staff shortage, Nana helped serve the Baron, who came to the Dollhouse for celebrations. He noticed her and became infatuated with her. He forced her to move to his palace and become his personal chef in a bid to make her his. 


Trivia: 

-Nana refuses to remove her bandages unless they are dirty and need changing. Otherwise, she would always keep it, regardless of what she's doing. It opens up an old wound that is too deep and too painful for her.


-Nana was lucky enough that no one forced themselves on her. They tried, and she came close to being raped, but her wit and pure luck saved her. 


-Nana's first time was at the dollhouse. She decided once she turned 22 that perhaps it was time to see what the fuss was all about. It went better than she could have expected, as in: She felt absolutely nothing but ennui and discomfort. It wasn't all that, and she decided that sex wasn't that great for her to experiment further with it. It was great to spend herself, so she indulged in it, but only with patrons who looked young and were recommended to her by her friend Sky. She wouldn't know how to behave if someone were to actually know how to make love to her. 


-Nana is convinced she's not pretty. Her mother kept telling her she wasn't after she burned her arm. She has a very practical view of lust and sex and thinks that horny men are not choosers at all. She notes that she could be covered in mud, but it wouldn't make a difference. However, she acknowledges that a clean Doll is always much preferred by patrons rather than a dirty one, and maaaaaybe, being clean is the only difference here. She is oblivious to her beauty, so much so that she's convinced the Baron who took her to the palace did it only because he wants to eat her food and not because he wants to dip his sausage into her hot saucepan. 


-Nana's never killed or seriously injured anyone. She has seen horrors and they have been done to her, but she was never put in a situation where she felt she had to kill/maim if she wanted to live. She doesn't want to hurt others, but if she has no other choice, she will put up the best fight of her life and might even kill her assailant or two of them. 

Wednesday, July 9, 2025

Rp splove: Mine: Mary edition

🦜 For Mary, Tom is like fire. He can be both nurturing and calm, comforting, and he can also become lethal. He can burn everything around him. She knows her man, and she knows that he will always do his best to protect those he loves, but sometimes his demons come back to haunt him, and he hurts those who love him, too. She knows that he can’t be tamed and doesn’t want to. What she wants is to give him an ideal place to grow into something beautiful and strong. She wants him to thrive. She wants him to have a safe place for his bad ideas / awful moods. She wants him to see how much good he can do for his loved ones. He put them out of poverty, helped them cement their names in town, helped them build families and own properties, and somehow, he brought them closer to each other. He has that power.  People flock around him.  For Mary, Tom is a nurturing flame. He comforts her. He protects her. He makes her feel good. He helps her build and grow as a person. He helps her heal.  She will always protect him, her flame, her black stallion. 



For Mary, Tom is hers; in the need they feel for each other is impossible to stop.  She feels such a strong desire for him that he makes her act foolish. He makes her take a cab wearing nothing but a sheer dress. He makes her hose herself in cold water whenever she sees him. He makes her lose her words. Tom is hers because he lets her be Bad Mary. He lets her be in touch with her sexuality and be free. And she lets him be himself, too. The Tom who can get on her knees for her. The tom who can go harder and bruise her because he fucks her harder. the Tom who eggs her on and feels alive when he finally cums inside her Tom is hers because no one else can love him like she does. No one would ever dare tell him what they want or how they want it. But she does. She can.

rp splove: Mine: Bäahal edition

🐉 For Baahal, Jaime feels safe. He is the fort who will protect her against danger of any kind. He is an unwavering support, a protector of some sort, and someone who always looks out for her. Baahal feels that she can trust Jaime no matter what, and he will always do his best to respect his word and keep his promise. Jaime feels like the warm embrace of Viseryon. Something she can’t replicate since her dragon died, but something similar. She feels understood and safe with him. 


For Baahal, Jaime is hers. In a way that no one ever was before. He’s the first man who made her moan, the first who made her wet, the first to make her feel good when he takes her. The first to make her want more. He even is the first to make her cum. Jaime is hers, because she gave him all of her first times and her most precious treasures, and he his hers because she gave him his first times as well. They belong to each other, and she will always make sure that her golden lion is loved and cared for as he deserves to be. She would always make sure that he falls asleep with a smile on his face because he made his firecracker  cum  but she also made him feel good. No one can top that. No one can take him. She would not allow for it.

Rp splove: Mine: Oya edition

💚 For Oya, Dean feels at home. He is a warm apple pie and a nice cold bottle of beer. He is the comfort after the effort, the icing on the cake, the warm blanket wrapped around her frame when she’s exhausted, sick, or upset. Dean feels at home. He is her home. She finds comfort in his arms. She finds respite and safety in his arms. She finds peace. He is her peace. 


For Oya, Dean is hers to please. She knows how to help him unwind and relax. She knows how to make him drop the savior persona so he can just be him. She takes charge, she tells him what to do. She caters to their needs. Dean is hers to play with like putty in her hand and she would be damned if someone else wanted to do it. They wouldn’t understand his needs like she does. They would want him to act like a savior and a dominant when Oya knows he just wants to let her decide for them both. He wants to let her be in charge, so he doesn’t have to do it there, either. He’s the submissive to her dominant side, and no one can match that.

Rp splove: Mine. Elpis edition

Mine: sfw and nsfw


💀 For Elpis Pride is the promise of better tomorrows. He’s a promise of an eternity of adventures, of conquest, of delightful debaucheries. Pride is eternity, and when she said he’s mine, she means that they will build a life for each other. A life the other deserves, an existence that brings fulfillment to both.


For Elpis,  nobody can touch Pride.  She would never allow it. His body is hers to service, hers to touch, hers to please. His eyes can only stare at her, his mouth can only lavish her skin with attention when it’s not busy talking to her through it. His cock is hers to fuck. She’s possessive of him. She’s so possessive of him. The only thing she can allow is for others to worship him. She loves that they praise him. She loves that they need him, but they better not try to touch him, because then her angry nature would come back. Pride is hers like breathing is to humans: essential. A part of her and only he can satisfy her the way she wants to. Only she can satisfy him, the way he needs to. He is the dominant to her submissive, and she wouldn’t want it any other way.

Tuesday, January 14, 2025

Vanya- campfire

Vanya chose to sit on a tree stump a couple footsteps away from the majority of the soldiers. She was not a good company to have at the moment and she refused to be distracted by their chants and other shenanigans. She couldn't bear their overwhelming joy and even less their desire to force her into dancing and chanting with them. So the elf isolated herself from her band of brothers. She took her knife and a wooden stick she started to carve when she heard the muffled sound of boots walking on the soft ground. Someone was coming closer. She quickly changed the way she held her knife to prepare herself for an attack and lifted her head.  Richard was standing in front of her. He was just dressed in a loosely fitted black shirt a pair of black pants and his old trusty pair of leather boots. Because their last mission took several weeks, Richard was sporting a scruffy beard and his hair was long enough for him to be able to tie it into a loose low ponytail.


"What are you doing alone, Vanya?"


"I needed some time for myself."


"Seems like you always need some time for yourself. All these years and you still don't want to spend a full night with us? Are you afraid of getting drunk?"


She rolled her eyes and shook her head. How ridiculous that statement was! She wasn't scared of getting drunk, as a matter of fact, she always got shitfaced whenever she indulged in drinking. What bothered her was that she tended to speak of things she would rather keep to herself.  She didn't want to spill her guts and expose her weaknesses to the greedy eyes of friends who could turn into foes with a hefty load of money. She pursed her lips together and twirled her knife in her hand. 

"Nope. I'm not afraid. I just don't feel like getting drunk with you guys." She shrugged, planted her knife into the tree stump, and tilted her head to the side to look at him straight in the eyes. "What do you want, Richard?" 


"Why do you assume I want something from you?" -He asked, furrowing a brow as he was curious about what she wanted to say. Vanya sighed and put both hands on her knees-. 


"Because I know you never ask something without wanting something in return. So... Tell me, what do you want to know?"


Richard knew little about Vanya except that she was of noble ascendance and, for some reason, became a gun-for-hire. He knew her parents were dead and she was angry but he didn't know why. He shouldn't be bothered with her past like he was because so many of them had awful pasts. So many of them were orphans, products of war, forged with fire and hardened by battles.  Vanya's unwillingness to share elements of her past, her aloofness, and her rough exterior piqued his interest. Perhaps that was the reason for his interest in her He shrugged, closed the distance between them, put his foot on the tree stump, and bent a little forward. 


"Why did you leave the royal court?"


"Why do you care?" -She almost bit her tongue while trying to reply to him. The question made her blush as he didn't expect her to retort with her own question. He furrowed his brows and looked at her with a confused look on his face.


"Why wouldn't I care about you? We've been together for 15 years now! It's a very long time in human years, Van." She pursed her lips and wrapped her arms around her leg. "I'm serious. You're my friend, and I know when something is on your mind. It's the only topic that gets you all defensive."

"I don't want to open old wounds, Rich. I left the court because I wanted to! I /had/ to!" -She tried to defend herself but it didn't come out as very convincing. So Richard's blue eyes stared at her with a harsher glow.

"And yet, you still cover your face when we walk into the royal city. If you didn't care about being recognized you wouldn't do this. So, I have to ask, what is it that you are so afraid of?"

"I'm not afraid. I am /angry/!" -She pointed out, unable to stop herself from speaking to him. Richard tilted his head to the side, now certain that he was starting to have the real answer to his question. She was angry and immediately he started to wonder who or what made her angry. Was it the court itself? Was it someone peculiar? She realized it was too late to backpedal and she was way too angry to think about lying. So she ran her hand over her face and moistened her lips.- "My parents were framed, I don't know who or why but they were framed and I can't do shit about it except find the people responsible for it. Because they were of noble ascendance, they were disgraced and marked as criminals instead of killed. My mother couldn't deal with the shame and she killed herself, well she let herself die when she got sick. My father took all the odd jobs he could to provide for me but that killed him. I left the court because all I could think about was finding the one responsible for the slander to force them to admit the truth or kill them if they didn't want to." 


Her orange eyes set upon Richard's face as she wanted to study his very reaction to her words. She was taking a huge risk by confiding in him but she trusted Richard more than anything else. He was her friend, perhaps the only friend she ever had in her life and she knew she could trust him. They had each other's backs for so long that it became second nature for them to care for each other. Still, she felt awfully vulnerable at this instant because she didn't know how he would react to her answer.  The elf expected anything from the human,  from laughter to a lecture but he did nothing of the sort. The mercenary sat next to her, his frame looking in the same direction as she was. His attitude was friendly, which made the elf relax next to the soldier. He glanced at her and quietly laid his arms against his thighs. 

"Do you have any leads?"

"Not yet.  I know that it's not an average noble who started the rumors. It came from a very powerful noble. I would... I just need to ensure it's not who I think it is."

"Who do you have in mind?"

"The King." -Vanya whispered, almost unsure of her words. Richard blinked-

"The What???" -Vanya's ears flipped and lowered and she covered her face with both hands.-

"You heard me well. He was a prince when that happened... I know it's a big accusation but you really have to trust me and my guts. They're telling me that it's him but I need to know for sure that he is involved in my family's disgrace." -She held onto his hand and squeezed harder- "Please, Rich... Swear to me that you're not going to tell my business to the others."

"I  swear on everything I hold dear!"

"Thank you. I appreciate it. "

" I'll help you in your quest. I know how hurt you are and I want to wipe the smug grin off of the king's face anyway. So count me in. I'll help you." -She pinched her lips together and nodded slowly. It was settled then. They would investigate and give her justice.-

It was settled.

Tuesday, January 9, 2024

Sleeping habits - rp wise

Colby: 


Mood dependent. Sometimes he would seek her out and pull her close. Sometimes she would have to initiate it.  Mary is a hugger, she would not force it on him but always try to be close to him. She would not force a hug on him, but on days she would need some, Mary would reach out and wrap her arm around his waist. 


Doya: 


They are mood-dependent but Oya is the bigger spoon.  He would always manage to hug her when she had a nightmare. 


JB: 


Bäahal snuggles Jaime and rests her head against his shoulder. They hug and that makes her feel safe. 


Klasma: 


Neela always wants to touch him. She needs to touch him, hold onto him, cuddle him. 


Hug:


She hugs him and comforts him when they sleep together.  Sara is always very cuddly and she always gives him cuddles and loves up on him.


Elpis and pride:


Pride isn't a cuddler but they can still be close and he likes it when she's close to him like that. 


Tuesday, December 12, 2023

List of rp characters (update 2023)

  • Oya Winchester - [Stand by] [SPN]
  • Bäahal Targaryen - [Active] [ Got Regular / Modern] 
  • Nëela Olusegun- [Active] [TVD]
  • Elpis- [Stand by] [Chronicles of the Primeval Gods / COPG]
  • Mary Colson- [Active] [Peaky Blinders]
  • Sara Richardson - [Active] [The Boys]


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Potential characters [No storyline but the character exists]


  • Lucretia Marin - [Unicorn] 
  • Leona Farrow- [Werewolf]
  • Judith Le Fay- [Faery / Enchantress]
  • Phoenix Rivers - [Dragon shapeshifter] 
  • Vanya Beryl Quimaris- [Warrior Elf]


Saturday, September 23, 2023

Sweet trivia

Doya: 


While Dean cooks, Oya loves to put on some music and dance and sing with him. It’s the one moment she can spend not snuggling with him or piggy riding him. She loves to put him in a good mood and share that moment with him. It’s truly her dream of domestic bliss ❤️


She also sometimes washes and cleans  Baby on the same days she washes her bike. She loves to see Dean's face when his car is clean as new! (And he didn’t know she cleaned his car )


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Elpis and Pride :


Elpis has made a crown for Pride. It’s infused with her energy but also her love. It’s a crown made of pure light but at the center of it, she placed a jewel she took from the Hades back when they were hiding there. This way the crown also has a bit of him and it’s perfectly balanced. 


She made it for him. To celebrate his ascension and also to give him something that would protect him should anything happen to her. She is so proud of her king! 


She also fondly loves it when he punishes those who upset her. He’s been devoted to her and the way he says « my light » makes her fold.


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JB:


Baahal loves falling asleep with Jaime. His heartbeats bring her comfort. She loves it even more when they wake up together and she can look at his face and just smile. She loves to wish him a good day, call him her love, and cup his cheek for a soft stroke. 


She also loves to dance (these days she only dances for her loved ones and never had the chance to dance for Jaime before or with him) she would dance for him one night and she would tell him that this is the most important gift she could give him. Sharing an activity she loves with him. Dancing for him. 😭


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KlAsma:


So far, Asma would think it’s cute to sit and watch Klaus paint. He paints places mostly but only if he ever wanted to paint her…. Oh, she would be so humbled and excited to be his muse. She would let him paint her and she would pose without complaints. They would take breaks and eat cheese drink wine and talk and laugh. 



Maybe another cute habit of hers would be to prick the tip of her finger just to draw a little bit of blood and smear some on his lips. To give him a taste to reinforce the idea that she is with him. For realsies*


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Colby: 


Mary loves it when she catches Tommy off guard. It doesn’t happen often but when he stops mid-sentence and thinks things through because she did something he did not see coming, she’s proud of herself. She saw his face when she pulled up on a horse that one time after years of not even walking near them 🤣

She also saw his reaction when she stepped into his room, horny as hell for him.  She loves to surprise him. 


She loves it when he gives her gifts and pretends he doesn’t care about her reaction because she knows he does. But she plays along and lets him blame Charlie for being responsible for the presents. 


She also loves it when she’s busy cleaning reading or even getting dressed and he comes and hugs her. 


She loves running her hand through his hair and singing to him. Especially his favorite songs. She sings and they feel comfortable in the echo of her voice and the cozy silence and attentive audience Tommy is.


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And HUG: 


Sara loves to cook for him. It’s her love language. She loves to watch him look at her and be in the moment. Perhaps with time he would be more handsy with her and would talk and would come and hug her from behind.  She loves it. She feels comfortable and safe in his arms. 


She also loves to give massages and would massage him. His chest. His back. She would make him feel good while they talked about anything.

Sunday, August 6, 2023

cuteness overload -

 Elpis 


1) cute is rarely a term used to describe Pride but Elpis does think that when he wants to surprise her and watches in delight as she is happy. 


2) Elpis would comfort him with praise. She would remind him of his accomplishments. She would remind him of how grand he is and how invincible as well. He is the damn emperor of the universe and nothing and no one can come in between them and in between their goals 


3) Pride… oh my! She loves when he’s dominant. She loves when he plays with his fingers and when he squeezes them around her neck. It turns her on so much to watch him drink his glass of cold drink and pull his sleeves up. She loves when his eyes turn purple because he’s aroused and when his aura is overwhelming. Pride is perfection and she folds the fastest when he is larger than life and undefeated.


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Asma 



1) Asma thinks that when klaus speaks about his passion or when he paints he is the cutest. He really is because he’s relaxed and there is not a worry in the world when he can focus on what makes him happy. She can listen to him

Speak about his encounter with the master painters, or watch him sketch and paint all day long. He is the cutest because sometimes she’d catch him smile.



2) Asma will let him hug her when he’s upset and when he is looking forward to hugging her. She will talk to him, stroke his hair or his face and will maybe cook him his comfort food. 


3) klaus fangs. It’s easily the sexiest part of him. Sort of. He also has the best legs she’s ever seen and would do anything to look at them. She loves the confidence he has in his good looks and when he teases her. Klaus is handsome, sexy in the way he speaks and she loves that he speaks with such elegance. His accent turns her on. His determined attitude too. she loves when he asks her to keep talking despite knowing her mind is not all there because she’s aroused.


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Oya



1) Oya loves when Dean is cooking for them. She thinks he is cute when he’s busy cutting up veggies or working on meat. He’s a grill “dad” so to speak and she loves when he flips them burgers. The fact he Carries her across the bunker on his back is the cutest thing ever. With Dean she feels taken care of and loved. Don’t even start her on when he kisses her scars. 



2) when her dickhead is upset, Oya just let’s him lean against her shoulder. They don’t need to speak, she strokes his shoulder or his face and she looks at him with all the love she feels for him. She hums lullabies to him and helps him relax until he decided to speak again. If he’s still a bit upset she would dance for him, be silly and then jump on him so he can carry her across the bunker. 


3) Oya goes feral when she looks at his ass and his back, especially when she can see the scratches she did moments earlier or the day before. She loves to look at his chiseled body and when he wears his lumberjack  shirts with nothing underneath? Or when he wears a pair of tight jeans? She drops on her knees.  His smile takes away any thoughts she has and replace them with the desire to kiss him, make out with him and make him have a good time.  The fact he is such a good boy and lets her order him around turns the hunter so much. He completes her. He meshes well with her. He gives her control and she can work hard to make both of them

Feel good. She can ask him to go harder and he does. She can ask him to go slower and he will.


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Sara




1) Sara loves when Homelander is leaning his head against her breasts. He feels so content, so relaxed and she thinks it's so cute when he's doing it. She loves when he cuddles her. He is adorable when he's excited about his good ratings or the fact people love him or when she did something that made him happy. He has the cutest smile. 


2) When her baby is upset, Sara would talk to him, give him a pep talk about how awesome he is. She would give him a shoulder massage or a back rub and would kiss him all over. Of course, on days he is really upset, she would take out her breast and would let him feed on her. She would nurse him during this time and would stroke his hair, kiss his forehead, comfort him.




3)Homelander is so handsome that he really doesn't need to do much to turn her on. If she had to pick and choose, it would be when he's focused on her. His hyper fixation is a huge turn on for her. his eyes are so beautiful that she gets lost in them. His attitude? oh when he's praising her and when he's getting hot and bothered and starts to talk dirty to her. He's so hot, he's so intense. He's so dirty. He knows how to talk to her and he knows how to turn her on. He never lets up, he never gives up and she loves it so fucking much.


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Mary




1) Mary thinks that when Tommy is speechless and tilts his head to the side, lips half-open, he is adorable as hell. He always seems to be ahead of the curve and all-knowing so it's very difficult to catch him off-guard, so when Mary manages to do, she thinks it's cute. He sometimes smiles a little bit to her after she's surprised him.


2) Tommy is very difficult to read. When he's very upset, he doesn't speak much. He can't. Mary realizes that when he is the most silent, and what she does is that she loves up on him. She would wrap her arms around his waist, would kiss his shoulder, would sing to him because she knows he loves her voice and it can soothe him. She would reassure him with loving words and remind him that he's loved and she's here. She would keep him warm. 


3) Tommy is incredibly sexy without even trying. But she loves when he smokes. the way he will roll the cigarette around his lips and he would look at her with his piercing blue eyes. He has such intense blue eyes that she can't help but fold when he is looking at her. She also loves when he is determined to fuck her. He is so serious, so intense and he speaks with such a deep voice, oh la laaa.


xxx


Bäahal




1) Jaime has a flair for drama. She really loves when he speaks his heart and claims his love for her. He is so elegant, so intense, so cute when he speaks with no shame and restraint.


2)  Bäahal would first talk to Jaime. She would touch him, run her hand through his hair and would lean her forehead against him. She would speak with a soft voice and would make sure to keep the eye contact with him. She would hug him and would keep him in a soft embrace.


3)  Jaime's bold attitude turns the princess on. When suddenly he can't hold back and he grabs her hair and speaks his mind. She loves the way he expresses his desire for her, the tenderness, the passion, the way he could press her against the wall and give her a kiss, the way he can make her lose her fucking mind when they are in public with not so subtle words whispered in her ear. Physically, Bäahal can't resist the way his jaw clenches when he's trying to remain serious and not give into his lust. His eyes are so intense that she can't help but feel weak in the knees.

Friday, July 28, 2023

Question: "What is the lie you don't want him to believe?"

“It’s…. Complicated. Right now I don’t know a lot about him to be able to dive deep into his mind. But I know…. I don’t want him to believe the lie that he’s a monster. It goes further than his kink for milk. This? It works with my power incontinence when I am scared or aroused. Drinking milk from a breast doesn’t make one a monster! Having emotions and big feelings as well. I can tell he grew up lonely. His private quarters are empty. Impersonal. He doesn’t even have family pictures. He’s all alone. Ryan is maybe the only family he ever had.  He’s alone. He’s been isolated. And because he has been alone, he doesn’t want to be left alone. He needs to be loved. I can tell. I felt the same after my parents died. I felt the same when they were alive…. He’s not a monster.  He’s not unlovable. Look at me, I fell in love with him. So it is a lie, isn’t it?  Uh…. Right now. I think that the lie I don’t want him to believe is that I don’t want him. I do! I fucking do. He’s my man. He’s my man! Of course, I want him. Not just for fucking me. It’s not just sex. It’s… more than sex. He’s not a monster.”


xxx


That he is a death-bringer. Michael believes that Tommy kills anyone who loves him or works with him.  He told me he was worried that Tommy might have me killed just because he attracts death. Tommy… believed it after Grace died. I heard him

With Polly. I saw him at home. He believed she died of a bullet meant for him. Maybe… maybe she was the target… that doesn’t mean that he attracts death and shouldn’t be close to people.  He takes his distance from me. And I am left afraid and lonely because I don’t know how to pull him back to me. I don’t know how to reach out to him and help him feel better.  I fear he believes it. I fear that’s why he’s not home that much…. I fear that’s why he doesn’t want to marry me. Maybe he doesn’t think about it. Maybe he’s afraid that if we do it, I will end up dead like all of his lovers. It

Is a lie! Tommy isn’t a death-bringer! He is the man I love and a man who brought me back to life!  He…. He…. I promised I wouldn’t cry. I am sorry I failed…”


xxx


Baahal (modern) 


“The lie? Well… the lie I can’t let him believe is that he’s too old for me. I am not a child! I am 25! I am an adult already! Somehow I might look a little young, and behave a little like a naive woman but never, oh never would I be a child! Or too young to be with him! It terrifies me that he listens to that crap because if he does he would leave me. And I would be alone again. I would see his sister who will remain my friend but… but…. Are you happy! I am sobbing now! I don’t want to imagine us apart!”


xxxx


Baahal: (regular)


“I fret that my beloved knight still believes that he doesn’t deserve a second chance at life. It goes beyond us. Beyond me. It is about him. Jaime showed his bravery and his desire to do better. He had tried to become a better person and I think that his efforts paid off. He became better! He is better.  He paid already for the crimes and bad actions he did and while some might have been for selfish purposes, most of them were done because of love. Jaime had paid the price and lost most of his family. His brother and sister are all them at is left for him and I can’t…. I can’t imagine allowing the idea that he should be dead to fester in his mind. He deserves a second chance. A chance to be happy. A chance to become a father and to be in a legitimate and blessed relationship. I will do my best to keep him from believing a lie.”


xxxx

“Klaus…. Thinks he’s a monster who can’t be loved and who will always end up alone. This is a lie. This is a fucking  lie. It’s complicated. Our curses forced us to be alone, to lash out, to push others out. His curse isolated him. It’s complicated…. Because he is the first of his kind and that makes you a lonely soul. But he’s not alone. He isn’t. I am here. I love him. I…. Am falling in love with him. And I understand better than anyone else what it is to be alone. I am alone… I have been until I met him. So I will try and make sure that he knows he’s not a monster that deserves to live a miserable life on his own.”


xxxx


“Pride doesn’t believe in lies. However, I make sure that he doesn’t convince himself that he has no soul. That he can’t feel anything. This is a lie I have heard so many times. So many moons ago. This is false. He feels. He loves. He is. Superbia isn’t a weapon. He isn’t a creature or a monster. He is a sentient being. I know he holds himself in high esteem but even he isn’t immune to self-doubt. So I will make sure to remind him of how grand and beautiful he is. Always.”


xxx


“I don’t want Dean to believe that he is not someone who can be loved. I refuse to let him believe the lie that he is damaged goods. He’s not. He’s fucking not. He is the most loving man I have ever known. He’s a devoted family man. A man who gives so much love, not with his words but with his actions. He is a man people want to be with or become like. He is the man who keeps my heart safe in his hands. He is a man I admire. He is a man I love. And it kills me to know he still doesn’t think he’s lovable. It breaks my heart for him. So all I can do is love him harder. On days he doesn’t love himself. I love him for the both of us.”





Saturday, February 4, 2023

3 rp questions: Mary x Sara

Sara: 





Q1: Sara loves to lavish her lovers with attention. She enjoys cooking for them and she loves to give wicked massages. She would always make the others comfortable, bring them their favorite drink, and make their favorite food.  She is also very honest with them and would always find a way to make them feel seen, cared for, and loved. It is something she has never had throughout her childhood and teenagehood so she aims to give it to others. If Sara welcomes you in her life, know that she loves you.  If she makes room for you in her life, know that she loves you. if she tells you when she's scared or worried, then she's being vulnerable with you. On top of it all, if you see her freckles, that also means she loves you. Dotty is the only one who knows about her freckles. She's the one who covers them and now Homelander does too. 




Q2: Sara... she is very hungry, she's very needy. She begs and pleads, and teases. She sometimes talks of her in the third person when teasing her partner. Sara, when aroused and horny gets soaked. She has a tendency to make a mess of her panties even before having sex and has a very sensitive body that reacts quite easily to being touched. She also loves to be praised (and loves to praise and often praises Homelander). She's also a very messy lover and she's not ashamed of it. She would give you sloppy blowjobs, would squirt on you, would soak you with her juices. She will lactate (on purpose this time, from arousal).  She also loves to call her lover "baby". However, as she becomes more intimate with the person, she tends to call them by their name. (with Homelander, it could either be Homelander or John, if he tells her his given name). 




Q3: For now, the thing she can't do without is actually to cuddle Homelander. To be able to touch him, to look him in the eyes, to have him stare at her, hyper-focused.  and the way he says her name too. She also loves when he calls her babygirl or his good girl. They haven't spent enough time for her to really think about it outside of sex, but she will definitely miss having him around, making him chuckle... his company.



xxxx


Mary:








Q1: Mary is a very nurturing woman. She shows her love by caring for the people she loves. Her face is mostly closed off unless she's with kids or loved ones. So, for Tommy to see her smile, to see her care for his wounds and state of mind, to see her care for his son. all of this is her love language. When she sleeps next to Tommy, she caresses him, sings to him, and would always run her fingers through his hair and massage his scalp. that's how she shows her love. Mary also doesn't cry a lot, but when she does, when she's vulnerable with you, you have to know she loves you. She also shows her love for Tommy by loving him as he truly is. She knows the good, the bad and the ugly and still, she stayed with him. She can always do her best to keep him alive, safe and to remind him that he has a family who loves him. Mary would never want to change Tommy because then, he wouldn't be the man she fell in love with. She wouldn't want him to become something he isn't. She would always try to make him feel the happiest he could be. 








Q2: When she's Bad Mary, she does love to curse Tommy. The more she curses, the more she's reaching her limit. She also likes to give him commands when they're at it, ask him to touch her, grab her, fuck her. it's not usual for Tommy to have women tell him what they want this clearly. She also cries when she reaches her climax. These are happy tears. She has this thing with trying to hold back her cries of pleasure until she can't hold back. It's a way for her to play with Tommy. There is also this thing about "another man" fucking her instead.  she loves to rile him up, and have him claim her. In truth, Mary actually enjoys sex with Tommy. He is the only man to actually drive her crazy with desire and need. Mary might be shy and "proper" in public, she is definitely NOT like this in private and is really happy to have found someone who can handle her strong appetite. 








Q3: When Tommy plays with his cigarette and is about to smoke it. It makes her weak in her knees, she can't explain. When he calls her by her name. When he cares for her in his very own way, the fact he can be soft next to her and listens to her. When he finds time to spend with both Charlie and her, like a family.  She loves when he whispers in her ear and even loves when he reminds her who he is. the fucking King of Birmingham! But she honestly couldn't be able to live without him. She loves Tommy, she loves the way he pays attention to her (to the small details and the biggest ones). She loves that he cares for her and doesn't mind her past, her issues, he shortcomings and the horrors she had to experience before. He doesn't judge her and he's definitely NOT discriminating her based on her skin. She would never be able to handle his death. She would never be able to outlive him. Tommy is her everything.

Saturday, April 16, 2022

mobster-verse (PB): Victoria "Mary" Colson

 Biographical information

 

Full name

Victoria « Mary » Colson

 

Born

1903

 

Age

30

 

Status

Alive

 

Origin

LONDON, England

 

Address

Small Heath Birmingham,  England.

 

Also known as

« Virgin » Mary (derogatory)

Mary (Everybody close to her calls her Mary)

Victoria Colson

Mrs. Colson

Miss V (when she sings)

Brown Bunny (derogatory)

The Nightingale of Small Heath.

 

 

Affiliation

Shelby Family

Peaky Blinders

 

Occupation

Nurse
Singer
Barmaid at The Garrison Pub.

 

Relationships (with the Shelbys sans Thomas) :

 

Arthur Shelby :

 

Arthur had a soft spot for Victoria. He enjoyed her bold nature when she came and stated that the pub needed a feminine touch and a little bit of beauty. He enjoyed her voice and the warmth she brought to the pub and appreciated their little banter. He treated her like a sister, especially since she didn’t mind telling him when he was out of line or when she lectured him about sleeping around with prostitutes without at least using protection -he could father children he didn’t want and that was the angle she argued with.-  He quickly grew protective of her and could go berzerk if someone dared touch, intimidate, or threaten her.  When Finn told him that he believed she was falling for Tommy, he didn’t believe him, considering how hard to read her face was. He soon realized the way she was behaving when his brother was around and how animated she became when he was mentioned and decided to make Thomas aware of the situation by telling him straight to his face that « Mary » was falling for him and she was too good of a woman to be left pining and he should deal with her in a way or the other but at least give her closure.

 

Polly Gray

 

Polly, as with most of the newcomers to their inner circle put Victoria through the wringer. She wanted to see if she was sincere or if she was a conniving little bitch. Much to her surprise, she found out that Victoria was a genuine woman who sincerely cared for her family but had a few skeletons in her closet. The two would grow closer over time, with Polly trying to help Victoria loosen up a bit and stop looking past her shoulders for a potential threat. She considered her somehow like her daughter and Victoria considered her like a maternal figure she never had. Her death left her devastated, even more so than John’s.

 

Ada Thorne

 

While Ada wants nothing to do with the Peaky Blinders or their business, she already heard about Victoria as well as Victoria heard about Ada. They both share a mutual respect. Victoria would treat her like a sister she never had, increasingly trusting her with secrets about her past she had not yet confided to Tommy. Ada realized that Alcohol was one poison Victoria took regularly and the more stressed out and scared she was, the more she drank. Polly being the same, the two women would increase their alcohol intake to the point of alerting Thomas when Victoria settles with him. Ada does help her sober up by allowing Victoria to channel her grief through taking care of Karl.

 

Finn Shelby :

 

Victoria is a little older than Finn, so when they met, he treated her as a friend. Finn, with his carefree mind, managed to crack her eggshell. He usually would banter with her and would make her the butt of his jokes. He quickly grew attached to her and would eagerly watch her perform at the club. He’s the first to notice that despite her claims, she’s not indifferent to Thomas and would discuss the matter with Arthur, unsure of what to do with the information. Finn would also witness an intimidation attempt from a rival gang from London, which she owed money, which would turn into an assault and would rescue her in time. The incident would shake her for a while and impact her performance but she requested Finn not to tell his brothers and would spend a couple weeks sleeping with a crowbar under her pillow in fear of another attack. When the two guys sent by the rival gang, crash one of her concerts, she broke down on stage and ran away, frightened that they would return to finish their job. Finn ended up spilling the beans to his brothers who took it upon them to pay her debt off, but not before they brutalized the men.

 

 

John Shelby

 

Victoria didn’t interact much with John, but they shared a mutual respect.  He had always been kind at best or at least polite when she was around. He advised Thomas to leave her out of illegal activities because she wasn’t cut for the task. It had less to do with being sentimental and honorable than being careful and protecting the business. However, John recognized that her ability to draw attention and captivate her audience could be used to take information from specific targets. She enjoyed John’s company and thought that he was a very thoughtful and decent human being.  She wept when he died and still is devastated by his death to this day.

 

 

Husband :

Carter Colson (1890 –  died. 1920) He was a former gangster from London, a gross manipulative asshole who took advantage of her. He left her in debt the didn’t pay for the birth and funeral of their child without telling her and unable to pay, she fled to Small Heath.

 

Father :

Jonathan Kingston (died 1915)

 

Mother :

Helen Bridge ( Still alive but has abandoned her daughter, might come back later in her story to bring trouble. She is wealthy and well established in the British political scene.)

 

Son :

Paul Colson (1918 – 1918 He didn’t survive childbirth and lived for 30 minutes.)

 

Sisters-in-law :

Katherine Colson (She never liked Victoria and cut ties after the death of her brother. She rats her out to mobsters to whom her brother owed money.)

 

Pets

A cat: Queen

 

Portrayed by

Gugu Mbatha-Raw

 

 

CHARACTER HISTORY :

 

EARLY LIFE

 

Victoria is born to a Jamaican father and an English mother. They met when her mother was on a trip to Jamaica with her parents, fell in love, and had sex that resulted in Victoria’s mother, Helen, getting pregnant. She returned to Great Britain and kept her pregnancy a secret and gave birth in 1903 to a daughter she didn’t even name and gave to an orphanage. Her father remained in Jamaica until WW1 broke and he joined the British army. He died in 1915 on the battlefield.

 

The nuns called the baby Victoria and raised her in a loveless and abusive environment. They trained her to become a nurse, so she would be able to help the children and alleviate the nuns' workload. She grew up into a beautiful woman who excelled in the medical field and discovered a real talent for singing she worked hard on.

 

In 1917, she met a 27 years old black man who belonged to a gang well established in London. He had managed to lie his way out of war by pretending to be disabled -which he wasn’t- He manipulated the then 14 years old Victoria,  into falling for him, using the fact she was young, naive, and eager to escape her miserable life. They started to « date » and one year later, she got pregnant with their first child. He married her with the complicity of the nuns and she became Mrs. Coulson.  She gave birth to a baby boy « Paul Colson » who died only 30 minutes after his birth, traumatizing the young woman.

 

She lived a very poor life with her husband and the two were very often forced to move out of the places they chose. She tried working as a nurse but wasn’t hired due to discrimination or sleazeballs who wanted to have sex with her. She was forced to turn into factory labor but there, befriended a woman called Stacy Dash. She discovered in 1920, at 17 years old, that her husband was actually a gangster who owed money to his London-based gang. He had swindled her into loving him, thinking he was an honest man when he wasn’t. The news devastated the young woman who sought refuge at Stacy's house and stayed for a full week. Her husband begged her to come back to him and warned her that they had to run away because his gang was looking for him but she refused to come back. After a week, she returned to their home only to find it burglarized and her husband murdered.

 

Scared for her life, she fled and hid at Small heath, where she lived a very difficult life. Afraid of being discovered and being asked about the money her late husband owed to the mob, she worked as a barmaid in any slump that wanted to hire her, when she wasn’t singing on the street. She witnessed the rise of the Shelby family as the resident gangsters but chose not to take part in any of their activities.

 

In 1924, she met with Arthur Shelby, after a dreadful month spent eating almost nothing, she chose to reach out to the Shelbys for an honest job and was hired as a barmaid. She kept quiet for a couple years but built a good rapport with Arthur, Ada, John, and Finn. Grace’s death and the following doom and gloom that settled in the bar compelled her to ask permission to begin her « singing career » Which somehow helped soften the blow of Grace’s death.

 

--- this is where the story differs from the show. Thomas still has hallucinations of Grace, and his situation is still difficult.

 

In 1925/1926 :

 

A couple months before John’s death, he informed Arthur about Victoria’s interest in his brother. Arthur then discussed the situation with both Victoria (who denied it) and Thomas (who didn’t realize the scope of the revelation). She had fairly found her place within the family, becoming a close friend and ally to the Shelbys. Her past, however, caught up to her, and one night, she was confronted by two London gangsters who -tipped off by her former sister-in-law-. The confrontation quickly turned ugly as the men tried to frighten her into giving them her money and paying off the debt, and they tried to rape her to prove their point. Finn witnessed the whole ordeal because he was going to her place to talk about her relationship with Tommy and how obvious it was that they both cared for each other – and his ulterior motive was to use this connexion to his advantage- He rescued her and tried to convince her to talk about the situation but she refused to bring her drama to their already dramatic life.

 

Things quickly turned sour for her. She started to heavily drink and sleep with a crowbar behind her pillow. She was staring at the clientele of the pub, to find her assailants and her behavior didn’t go unnoticed. All hell broke loose when the men who stalked her, finally attended one of her shows at the pub, prompting her to break down on stage and cancel the show. A concerned Thomas tried to make her tell the truth but it took a while before she finally explained what was going on. Enraged, Thomas asked his brothers to help him deal with the situation. They found the guys, beat them up, and paid them off, saving Victoria from them. Still concerned, Thomas asked for the young woman to come live with him so he would make sure to keep an eye on her and protect her better.  Which she agreed to do.

 

This year saw the death of John, which was a shock for the family. Because they feuded with the Changretta, the Shelbys lost a brother and that sent both Thomas and Victoria into despair. Of them both, and perhaps because she was used to being left behind and to death (from the orphanage, her son, and her husband), Victoria found the strength to comfort Thomas and help him grieve for the death. They had sex for the first time while mourning for John and from this moment on, they would become more intimate.  At first, Tommy believed that it meant nothing, she was just another woman he had sex with like Tatiana Petrovna or Mary Carlton but he was wrong. He cared for Victoria, enough for him to be alarmed when Ada told him about her alcoholism and the grief she was trying to deal with. She encouraged her brother to talk to the woman and have her speak of her late son and her past. Which he did, and which brought them closer together.

 

The war with the Changretta Family reached its end in 1926 with the death of Changretta at the hand of Arthur. The family seems to still reel from the death of Grace and John but the genuine and innocent presence of the young woman offers some well-deserved comfort to both Thomas and Charles. He wants her to permanently settle with him and become an honest woman (so perhaps he is proposing but it’s not clear here) but she always rejects his suggestions, unwilling to become a replacement for his late wife. Thomas is plagued with nightmares of Grace as he feels guilty about replacing her « so soon » with someone else as he feels he is falling for Victoria. His family, however, advise him to be very careful with the young woman and not use her as he did with Tatiana.

 

Comes 1929 ------ to be updated 

 

  

PERSONALITY

 

Victoria’s saving grâce had always been her wits. She is clever, and stoic most of the time so she could observe people and gather as much information as she could. She is widely known for her beautiful singing voice, her skills as a nurse, and her uncanny beauty.  She is a quiet woman who loves quiet hobbies and she’s also resilient. Despite growing up in a very abusive orphanage, Victoria still found the strength to keep a positive outlook on life -at least, she pretends to be She still has some innocence left and despite her aloof nature, once she trusts people she warms up to them and reveals a very soft and kinder side.  Deep down, she’s a broken bird who needs a safe place to heal but hasn’t known what genuine love is and therefore can’t recognize it when she sees it.  She’s very loyal and once she gets closer to the Shelbys, she would remain loyal and follow Thomas Shelby -but not blindly-

 

CHARACTER ANALYSIS

 

 

Living... in post-WWI Birmingham, England, a widow. She is doing her best to survive a very difficult time. How had she not been killed yet is a mystery?

Profession... She has medical training and is a certified nurse who worked at the orphanage she grew up in. However, when the Orphanage closed off, she tried to find a legitimate job as a nurse but she couldn’t face it due to either racism or sexual harassment. She resorted to becoming a barmaid and a singer at a local pub in Birmingham that happens to be owned by the Peaky Blinders.

Interests...  Drinking and dancing. Victoria doesn’t have many vices but alcohol helped her numb the pain. She also loves animals and sometimes watches racetracks

Relationship Status... single. Since she had to fend for herself, she avoided opening up to people.

Challenge... Staying alive and out of illegal activities. She doesn’t have much choice since gangsters were thriving at her time. She had to give in to her sleazy landlord to keep her roof over her head.

Personality... Victoria is intelligent, cunning, witty, and stoic (not to Tommy’s extent, but she’s really hard to read). She is trying to protect herself from pain as her life had been nothing but a bad cycle. Deep down she’s actually very soft and desperate for love but looks in the wrong places.  She is not above killing someone if that meant she could protect others (or herself). She’s been traumatized by the loss of her baby, the abandonment of her mother, and the abuse at the hands of the nuns who « raised her ».  She wears on her back the stigmata of the whipping she received at their hands. All she wants is a happy life, but she tends to self-sabotage because she doesn’t believe she’s worth loving.

 

XXX

 

ROMANCES :

 

THOMAS SHELBY

 

They have a very complex relationship. They met when he was still married to Grace and at the very beginning, despite noting her beauty and quiet nature, he didn’t really pay attention to her.  He enjoyed her honesty and the genuine care she put into her work and noticed he enjoyed her singing. However, she was at the very best, just one of his employees, and at the very worst, not important enough for him to care.

 

Things started to change with grace’s death. By then, Victoria had become very close to some of his siblings, especially Arthur and Finn. He noticed her genuine care for his family and admitted to her that he enjoyed it when she was singing because the place looked less gloomy and dreadful to stay in. The two started to spend more time talking to each other and eventually bonded over time. Both are very reserved and keep their feelings close to their heart due to their respective traumas and issues. Victoria is very guarded because she fears being abandoned and abused like she so often was in the past but she can’t really hold back her tenderness towards her kin « Thomas ».

 

They’re both hurt, and both are trying to find something that could make them forget the pain. Thomas has alcohol, smoking, and gambling while she limits herself to Drinking. They both like sex as a way to forget their pain but as they grow attached, they start to make love instead of seeking release. They argued a lot, especially before they admitted their feelings to one another because Thomas didn’t mind having sex with other women when he felt like it (or to further his plan) because he wanted to prove to himself that he wasn’t in love with Victoria. They argued when other men flirted with the singer because Thomas was afraid she would leave with one of them. It took some time before he realized that he was jealous and wanted her for himself. Not just because he was selfish, not just because he craved her affection but because he wanted to make her happy. Still….Being in love and caring for one another wasn’t an easy task for both of them.

 

He wants to protect her and doesn’t tell her what he considers she doesn’t need to know, which would increasingly frustrate her. Despite her desire to keep her hands clean, she also wants to support her man and wants to advise her but it’s a thin thread that could snap at any moment. She is smart, and she sometimes has the right ideas but Tommy doesn’t want to lose her because she got her hands dirty with his business. He’s overprotective of her and since John’s death is paranoid enough to double her security details. She noticed that he’s self-destructing and never satisfies himself with what he has. He’s afraid to hurt her beyond reason and to lose the tiny bit of sanity still left inside him. he’s afraid that she would believe he compares her to Grace and would never be up to her memory and it eats at him that perhaps his second love would ruin his third one.

.

Tommy is the first man she’s actually loved and with this first love comes to passion. She loves him fiercely and doesn’t hesitate to knock some senses into his skull or confront his family if she thinks they went out of line. She also reasons with Thomas and tries to soften the angles so the family doesn’t break apart. Needless to say that she doesn’t always succeed but her efforts are noteworthy.

 

 

***

 

Quotes

 

« You don’t need to go tonight. You don’t need to die for a nobody like me. »


« Don’t think for a second that I don’t have it in me to kill a man. I’d kill you in a second and wipe my blade on your fucking face. »


«I don’t come from two worlds, Tommy. I am but human and I suffer like the rest of us, so fuck you and your high horse! »


« My weapon of choice is Bourbon. If I was looking for something quick, I’d shoot myself. »


"Love? Your mouth says the words but I see your cold eyes. I see the emptiness inside and the desperate need to fill the void. You don’t love me, you simply need a distraction."


« Are you really laying on my bed, pretending that all I am to you is a cunt to fuck? Are you really trying to make me believe that there is no affection for me in that black heart of yours? Piss off !”


"This smile of yours, Tommy, is going to be the death of me. It seems that I can’t resist when you smile, eh?"


 

« I don’t want to let my heart bleed in front of him. If I do that, then he would have seen all of me and all of me can’t be loved. I know…God told me. »


« I swear, on your fucking brother’s grave, that if you keep yapping your mouth I will slap the shit out of you Thomas! How Dare you speak to me like this ?! »


« I have never given my heart to someone before… If I give it to you, promise me you won’t destroy it. It’s all I have left, my most prized possession. Don’t fuck with me. »