Bäahal x Jaime: Breath

Bäahal x Jaime: Breath

A/N : Mood piece, taking place right after their first « night » together.

Xxx

As the princess closed the door of her cabin behind her, she could finally lean against the heavy wooden door of her cabin and look at the ceiling. Moments before, she was in Jaime's cabin, waking up from the sweetest slumber she'd ever had. Moments before, she was in his arms, her lips pressed to his cheek, to his lips, while his arms were wrapped around her frame. For so many months, probably more than a year now, the princess had been longing for the knight's touch. She'd been dreaming for a moment like this and none of her expectations could match reality. The reality was far better than any wet dreams she could have had. A myriad of emotions went through her body and the first reaction she had was to chuckle and smile to herself.

It felt good, to be in his arms, to smell his scent, to feel his stubble cheeks rub against her soft skin. It felt good to be able to press her forehead to his and smile through the darkness as her heart was content and happy. Her heart raced that night, his too... almost matching her speed. Her heart raced for he was close and it felt natural, it felt right. She felt like she belonged there, with him. She remembered holding onto his shirt as she fell asleep, and then knew their bodies parted ways during their sleep but it didn't matter, for the bed, was warm with his presence and he didn't leave the bed when the sun shone brightly.

After the laughter came tears. She realized that she had been deprived for so long from a loving touch that her body was feeling it too. Never before a man had ever looked at her as an equal, as a person. Never before had a man tried to stay with her and talk with her. All of those she used to know only knew how to force themselves on her and dismiss her once their deed was done as if she was nothing but a toy. Jaime was not like this. Jaime was not seeing her as a tool to use, but a person to love and that made her heartache, and rejoice at the same time. She dropped on the floor and wrapped her arms around her legs so she could keep herself together and cry. For so long, she thought it was impossible for another soul to want to be with her. She'd thought, they would never even consider her for how soiled she was. She thought Jaime could see the abuse on her skin, the brand on her shoulder blades, the fact she wasn't pure or proper...yet he didn't seem to even care about her past, or judge her for that matter. All he knew and all he wanted was the woman before her... nothing more, nothing less.. just Bäahal.

As she wiped her eyes clean with the back of her hand, the ebony Targaryen chuckled again, this time with hearty laugh filled with hope. If even the broken princess could find love in the midst of the fire, then everything was possible. She didn't think of what she lost, at least, not as much as before, when she was with him. She didn't think of what she could be, not as much as before when she was with him. She only thought of the moment they had. Of the peace, she felt in her heart when he held her close, of the love she felt for him when she could feel his skin. Jaime gave her something she never thought she could have, a purpose, a future, a solid foundation where she could build a life. Jaime gave her Hope... even before she knew she was in love with him and now that reality was settling in, she realized that she needed that Hope. She knew that they had crossed a line they shouldn't have crossed. Daenerys could decide to never let them be together and when that happens, what could they do about it, if not feel distraught? Bäahal knew they took a major risk, of opening the door to more suffering if they weren't allowed to be together.. but the princess didn't care, for she thought she had earned a few resting moments and peace... and love. After all, she'd just survived a siege, she could have died a few months ago. Why would she deny herself a piece of happiness when death was at the corner? Why would she deny herself a piece of happiness when she could be with the man she loved? She promised Kyra she would do anything in her power not to cause troubles to her family and keep them safe and she was ready to leave Jaime behind if that meant saving his life... but before they came to such extreme, couldn't she just be happy for once? Hadn't she deserved a little bit of respite? Of joy? Of Love? Hadn't they?

-TBC-

Elpis and Pride: 2000 years later

Elpis and Pride :

// All the usual disclaimers. 

2000 years later...

Elpis was different from the goddess she used to be 2000 years ago. She still remembered how she was before she met Pride. Naive, devoted to her family and with a curious gaze upon mankind. They groomed her into becoming the obedient little sister whose only motivation was to keep her family happy. She had no real clues of her potential, no real clues of actual love and yet when she met Pride, she fell head over heels for the First Sin. She set herself free from the leash her family put around her neck. She grew in power, explored her true potential and at the same time discovered the power of Love. It sounded cheesy because ultimately, she didn't truly know what true love was. Her sister, the primeval goddess of Love told her that it was « puppy love », nothing but a flame that would be extinguished as soon as the violent reality would crush her reality. That Elpis was bright, she was a pure ray of sunshine filled with the joyful bliss of ignorance and looking back from now, the goddess had a few regrets.

She couldn't see just how wretched her family actually was. How hatred and jealousy filled the hearts of those she loved deeply. The coup against her beloved father hurt the goddess, but not as much as the death of her loyal and loving siblings or the fact her brother and sister cursed her for 2000 years. None of them understood what Pride was... or eventually, their fear was justified and she was the delusional one. Either way, they betrayed her and for 2000 years, the goddess suffered. Now that she was free, and the thirst for revenge was overwhelming her, Elpis realized that she was nothing like the young goddess she used to be. She was stronger. It wasn't just a matter of power, she was able to conceive the fact her own family was trying to get rid of her. She was able to see that this new version of Pride was a different one, a better one. She also was able to recognize true love as she fell in love with Pride. It was a conscious choice she made, one where she knew who he really was and still wanted to be with him. She wanted her Sin to rule the Universe and she wanted to rule with him.

Yet, as the goddess watched her reflection on the window, she traced it with her forefinger. Did she shine as bright as the younger version of herself? She could feel the fire burning inside of her and the desire to be more than what and who she used to be, but was she still bright? Vengeance was still part of her, from the moment the Sumerian gods disrespected the all-father, she acted upon her desire to make them beg and ask for forgiveness. Vengeance never left her but did it truly change her? Her eyes glowed brightly as she kept tracing her fingers on the glass. The sudden doubt that crept into her heart was brushed off as she looked at the determined face she looked at. The goddess before her was shining even more than she did before. She didn't need to regret not being the naive goddess she used to be because she became someone better. She grew into a woman who went through Hell and came back stronger. However, she refused to let anger overwhelm her too much. She refused to have her heart filled with hatred and anger and turn into her siblings. The goddess of Hope was worth something more. She was better than them, she deserved more and she would have more. She sighed softly as she felt familiar arms wrap around her frame and pull her against a strong torso. She blinked and bit her bottom lip as she realized it was Pride. Her worries could wait, at least for the night.

ELPIS AND PRIDE: EAGERNESS

//Picture courtesy of my beloved Pride. <3

"You will see, when all is said and done, you will see that there is still something more to discover."

Elpis was talking about herself. She wanted Pride to realize that there was far more than what his eyes could see to what Elpis was. She was more than just an ally in his upcoming war against his siblings and her pantheon. She was more than the besotted goddess who would follow him to the deep end of the Hades. She was more than the lover he once had before Hades unmade him.

Her determined golden gaze set upon him as she was ready to show him what she meant by those words. That he didn't just earn an ally but he earned a partner. He earned someone with a similar ambition, with a hunger for conquest that matched his and a strong, if not endless desire to do it with him. To be his partner, his equal, his other half.  She wasn't interested in empty promises and petty desires. She wanted to build an empire on the whole world and universe, an empire she would rule with Pride and if it didn't work, then she wanted to die while trying. She meant "every" in the world everything.