Jonathan Jeremiah - Gold Dust (Official Music Video)

holiday greetings

I know I am being late to the party, but it's still early enough for me to land this note here:)

Lelia made this a habit to deliver to us a Santa Thong (or Sexy Santa) picture to celebrate the end of the year and thanks to her, it also became a habit of mine to write a heartfelt message to welcome the holidays. So my friends, tribute to you the last three paragraphs.

2015, what a dreadful year ! It's not so much about what I hoped would happen but didn't. It's more about what did happen and I wish it didn't. It would be very easy for me to talk about the Ugly as I call it, but I will leave it where it is for it's not the place nor do I want to actually talk about it. This year almost never saw me end it but right in the darkest hours, I was blessed. I am blessed and this is what I am going to celebrate.

I could go on an on about the difficult but rewarding experience it is for me to try cosplay. How many people are encouraging me not to give up on it. Such positivity from the cosplay community is heart-warming. It's more than just wearing a costume, it's a challenge for myself and for people like me to overcome their fears and do it the right way. I could go on about it, but I'll save it for another day. I could also ramble about Comic Con and the joy it made me feel relationship wise. Seeing my artist buddies, having a great time with them is always a pleasure and somehow it makes me feel at home. They are fun, caring and skilled and seeing them reach their goal would definitely make me feel happy for them. I could go on about how I met Stephane Roux and befriended him ! We had a delightful conversation with him and it was something I have always wanted to do. Maybe as much as having been noticed by two or three of the artists I have an art-crush on, like the biggest art-crush on. To have them talk to me, to see us becoming good friends is something I treasure very much : anything is possible ? This looks like it ! All by itself was already a little miracle.

I could go on an on about that project of mine I can't openly talk about just yet. It's not as « big » as it might sound like (no contract or anything, let's not dream too hard), but in itself it's something so huge for me that I am DYING not to be able to speak about it until the first part is done and ready to be shown. But it's taking a lot of time to do and it's exciting to say the very least ! Even this is a blessing ! One I believed was a joke made on me until it was confirmed to actually be happening <3 another dream came true.

I could spend days talking about my character and the fact I have started to dig into my old work and design more characters for her own story. That I am getting close to decide what I want to do with her and keep it coherent and focused. I am positive that by December 2016 , I would have made up my mind and would start working on it more seriously. I could hope, it's not a promise. Talking about it would be my greatest joy but as most of you know, I am still working on sharing my stuff and taking myself a little more seriously. But it's going to happen someday. <3

Yes, I could go on an on about all of that but it's not the most important. What 2015 brought me was definitely my friends. I'm talking about my lovelies, my brothers and sisters from other misters. I'm talking about those who can /see/ me and know about the Ugly and the Bad. <3 those who gave me their undying love and loyalty, those who care for me. Everyday, especially when life was such a dire challenge, you were there for me. Every e-mail, text or phone calls I received in such dark times were uplifting me, encouraging me, supporting me and even beyond. You've shown me so much love, so much care that even today I cannot believe it is real and it exists. You know why I'm saying this, what brought me to think like this but every second I have a doubt or my world gets twisted you help me fix this and see past the smoke. I love you, always and forever ! You know what that means, you know it, even when I believe you don't. I'm being super clumsy right now but each and everyone of you already know how I feel about you and how much I actually love you and I COULD NOT have dreamed of better friends than you. You never gave up on me, not even once, not even when I did and for this, I wish there would have been a word to express my gratitude but there isn't except : thank you from the bottom of my heart. We're going through thick and thin and I've just realized that it's not just in my head and you actually do mean your words <3 how could a woman not celebrate such wonderful beings ? How could one not celebrate such wonderful friends ?

Finally I do not forget the new friends I have made, the ones I am still learning to know, the ones who saw me and were all like « who's this crazy lady ? I want to be friend with her ! » ahah:) I am so glad to have met you ! I don't add people at random, trust me. So if you made the cut and you're still around then you're pretty awesome and I like your brain. <3 <3 so please, keep being awesome ! Keep being wonderful ! Okay ?

You've made this year suck less than it did, you made me every little victory feel like I've won the war. You've made me appreciate my time here and now, as I speak, I even dare feel hopeful for 2016 to become the year 2015 failed to be for me. To become my year and also yours. To become a year filled with as much joy as possible and as little darkness as possible. I want you to be happy, even more than you could possibly be right now because everyone of you deserve their corner of happiness. That's how I love you best <3