A vintage's touch: "Don't worry about me."

COLBY

"Don't worry about me. I can hear your voice from here, Tommy, telling me that you're alright and I don't need to fear something happened to you. Yet, you'll let me check on you because you know I need to be sure you're fine. Still, you don't like it. I know you don't. You're the man who knows everything, who plans everything, who always is ten steps ahead of the game. Don't tell me that. Don't fucking tell me not to worry about you. We've lost John. We've lost Grace. I don't want to lose you either. Over the years you have become family to me. You have my heart and you don't even know it. I need you alive, Tom. Our son needs you alive. I dread losing my family again, so yes, I worry. I trust you with everything I have. I know that you will conduct business and you will be ahead of the game. You will outsmart everyone like you have already done but....You and I both know that there is someone out there who will get you. You asked me, a while ago, why I wanted to live this life. I chose you, Tom. I chose you and I will always choose you because I fell in love with you. Deep down, I think you know it. Deep down, I think you feel something for me. I'm not dense. I'm not stupid. However, loving you means that I want what's best for you and I will worry about you. We're not husband and wife and Polly and Lizzie are right, I want to marry you. I guess, it's how things are done, right? I want to be able to adopt Charlie. Oh.. I want so many things but I want you to know that you are everything to me. Everything."