got (modern): To the brother I never knew.

To the brother, I never knew. 

Rhaegar, 

I wonder if the Father in his infinite wisdom and mercy saw the content of your heart  I heard of your great character and the exploits you're credited for. I have admired your honor and have wept for you upon learning you met your demise because you fell in love with a woman you should not have loved.  I can only pray for the Father to have sent you to a better place, near your ancestors and your loved ones. I can only pray that you can watch over me and that you can protect me from beyond.

I ask for your mercy, beloved brother. I ask for your guidance. I feel, still to this day, I feel inadequate. I feel that all I can do is bring dishonor to our house. I wasn't born a princess, I wasn't taught the way of the elite, and the circumstances of my birth were nothing short of sorrowful. I didn't feel worthy. I still don't. Brother, I haven't met you, nor did Dany but I am praying for your guidance today. I fell in love with a man who caused a great deal of pain to our family and our allies. I couldn't help myself and I tried to fight these feelings. 

I failed...And I failed very badly. You have been a witness to the endless nights spent crying on my bed or how heavy my heart is because I cannot ride Viserion anymore. I feel powerless. I feel voiceless. I feel so out of place, Rhaegar. I want to serve our House the best I can but deep down I cannot help but feel I am not doing so. I tried to honor my mother and her teachings as well... but even her, even her... I have failed her too.  Rhaegar, what should I do? What should I feel brother-mine? Who should I confide in? 

I apologize, brother-mine. I apologize for being alive. Perhaps, if I didn't exist, there would be no issues. Perhaps if I didn't exist, I wouldn't be a liability to this family. Perhaps they wouldn't have used me to try and hurt our sister. I can only promise you one thing: I will always put our House before anything else, especially before me. I would never betray her, no matter how I feel and I promise you that if I have to give up on my love for Jaime, I would. If I had to die for her, I would.  But I beg of you... Guide me. Please... Guide me... please...