MOET: A light int he dark

MOET: A light int he dark 

A/N uncertain times, lead to anxiety.

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I have always dreamed of a cookie perfect future, where I would have it together.

I kept burdening my shoulders with an unnecessary weight over the years.

And as expected, I ended up being overwhelmed and disappointed.

How could I not be, when I was the one to set the bar so high?

I thought my life had only meant when I « became » something.

The dreams I tried to fulfilled and the goals I tried to achieve were not realistic.

The pressure I put on myself was so strong that it ended up suffocating me.

And when my future slipped through my fingers and, I didn't reach my goals?

I crumbled.

What was the point of my life if I wasn't able to « become » who I wanted to be?

If I didn't correct my imperfection and snapped those picture-perfect moments of my life?

What was I if not a fraud? What was I, if not unhappy?

I forgot how it was to enjoy my life the way it was. I forgot how it was to be me.

I couldn't tell if it was time convincing me that I was nothing, or the constant failures that did it.

The air became suffocating and I couldn't breathe. That's what happened since my dreams.shattered.

I couldn't move forward, I couldn't breathe and I lost myself into the darkness that was my life.

There was nothing left but darkness, so I decided to drift away until it swallowed me whole... until...

Light pierced through the dark.

Love came to me, victorious already. I could feel its warm light embraces my dried-out heart.

I could feel it destroy the darkness that surrounded me and bathe me in its righteous light.

It embraced me, comforted me and like a mother to a crying child, it cradled me.

« You're more than enough » she whispered to me and like a child, I ended up weeping.