"What do you mean, I love you too much?"
What do you mean by "you feel suffocated"?
What do you mean by "I put you on too high a pedestal"?
When you kept telling me that my love was welcome.
When you kept telling me that I was more than enough.
When you kept telling me that you loved being in my life.
It stung. It hurt. It fucked me up.
The whiplash from the change of tune almost made me dizzy.
One minute you love me, the next you run away from me.
That got me thinking.
It is not me. I am not the reason for our end.
You simply decided that you no longer wanted me in your life.
You simply decided to put the blame on me.
Easier to turn me into the reason you feel upset,
While I know that your life is unraveling, and your secrets are being spilled.
While I know you resent me for keeping a positive mind when everything is breaking down around me.
Easier to turn me into the reason you feel upset,
And to try to trash the bond we once shared.
And to try to project your self-loathing onto me.
It stung. It hurt. It fucked me up.
I wondered if I loved too much and if my relationships were real.
My mind broke for a while, and tears kept on rolling.
It stung. It hurt. It fucked me up.
I let your actions blur the truth to me, reshape the way I think of myself.
I let it affect me when it should not have. It is your bullshit and not mine.
What do you mean by " I love you too much"?
When you kept telling me the opposite.
When you kept loving me all the same.
When you kept asking me not to change.
What do you mean by " I love you too much"?
When I know you simply don't love me enough.
