N Splove on Mary

 //// I am doing this for safekeeping. We never know when things could disappear. I want to be able to come back to his words. 

(PB) Mary: 

Our newest endeavour together, but already so, so, so good. Mary and Tommy just… they clicked right away. I know I told you, I really wasn’t sure about writing Tommy. So far, he’s probably the character I felt the most worried about, that I wouldn’t be able to find his voice and get it right. But I think we are there; I really think we are already there. 

Mary is… it is so, so important that she understands who Tommy is. He’s not a good man. Not entirely a bad man either. Mary has been in his life long enough to know, to have seen and to understand. 

In this beginning part especially, I know that they are going to frustrate the hell out of each other. Tommy with his fear to commit. Mary with that threat of finding someone else.

But they are going to figure it out. I already know that they are going to figure it out. Tommy knows that Mary has been there, that she has seen the kind of man that he is, that he really is. And she wants that man. He’s an ambitious man, a gangster, a killer, a businessman. He is not going to stop, not any of it, not ever. He use to talk about ending the “other stuff” and going 100% legitimate, but that is never going to happen. Honestly Tommy would probably get bored if that happened, he would go seeking something else out.  What is really going to set Mary apart is the fact that she knows that, that she accepts this about him. No one else ever has. Not even Grace. This is… this is huge. Someone who, genuinely, understands and accepts Tommy for exactly who he is. That is something he has NEVER had, not with anyone. 

I don’t want to get too far ahead of myself in talking about what is going to happen, because there’s no way I can say any of that for sure. But we are setting ourselves up for something great here.

I do know that Tommy does not look at Mary and simply see a replacement for Grace. Grace was Grace. And Mary is Mary. 

I think… well I guess I might as well talk a little bit about the way I see it. The way I see it, Grace was someone that Tommy clung to in the aftermath of the war. He was a broken man, a drowning man, and… there was Grace. And even when it turned out to be a lie, even though she was a spy and she betrayed him, Tommy couldn’t quite let go of that ideal he had of her in his mind. She was good for him, in a way. She helped Tommy put some of himself back together. And while arguments can be made that they weren’t the best suited for one another, Tommy loved her. No question there, he loved her, and she is Charlie’s mother, and she’ll always have a part of his heart.

Mary, on the other hand, Mary is exactly who she says she is. Mary loves Tommy for exactly who he is. Mary cares about not only Tommy, but his family as well. Mary has already been a part of Tommy’s life for a long time, and loyal to the Peaky Blinders throughout that time. He’s not just clinging to her. She is there, she is in his home because Tommy likes having her around, because he wants her presence. I just see the dynamic as being entirely different, and I think that it is going to lead to a relationship that is entirely different. I know Mary is going to look out for Tommy, and she is going to challenge him in new ways. These two are going to become something entirely new and all their own. We just have to wait and see how it plays out, and where they take us.