Daenerys ran her hand through Bäahal's silver locks. The princess fell asleep on her lap a while ago and the queen allowed her mind to wander for a while. The two of them had a complex history. One that was laced with tears, trauma, and laughter. One that was filled with hope and despair and love. It was love that helped Dany welcome Jon into her life and allow love to flourish in her heart once again. It was love that helped Dany believe in healing and step into her duty as a queen of the seven kingdoms with confidence. It was Bäahal's love that helped her stand when all she wanted was to fall. That love was unbreakable and Dany felt grateful. It took a while for Daenerys to fully embrace the fact she had a sister, still alive and around her age.
That love resisted anger. Both Daenerys and Bäahal clashed when the queen learned that her sister was in love with Jaime Lannister. It felt like a slap in her face, a betrayal of such a great magnitude that she didn't know how to forgive her. Jaime Lannister was the man who killed her father. He was the one who betrayed his vows. He hurt Jon's brother. His family was responsible for so much pain and suffering that Daenerys couldn't comprehend the bond that existed between him and her sister. What did she see in him? How could she look at him with love in her eyes? Every time the princess gushed about Jaime, the queen felt anger make her blood boil. She hated to hear her sister complimenting him. She hated to watch Bäahal's face full of love for the man she hated the most. How could they reconcile their differences? How could they make it work? Daenerys couldn't think of a solution and instead allowed her anger to take over. Bäahal would never marry Jaime. She would never let this man enter the family. Dany tried to make it so, but eventually, she realized that she was hurting her sister. She realized that her stance on Jaime was driving a wedge between the two of them and she was about to lose her.
That love resisted her guilt. Daenerys felt guilty because she didn't realize that distancing herself from her sister would not go unnoticed by the princess. It hurt her sister, and it was so painful to see, so obvious, even to the untrained eye. Dany missed several events in the life of her sister, she wasn't there to comfort her when Bäahal needed it. She wasn't there to guide her when her sister needed it. She wasn't there to make her feel better when Bäahal needed it. It was heartbreaking to watch the face of her sister wet from the tears she shed and her body shiver from head to toe from fear. Bäahal refused to talk to her and each time she heard that the princess would not oppose her decision to marry her off to a total stranger, her heart sank. The sisters grew apart from each other. In fact... they lost each other.
But they found each other again. Daenerys came back to her senses, went past her anger, past her anguish, and past her fear of being rejected by her sister so they could have a decent conversation. They talked, for what seemed like days (and it was indeed). They talked and put everything on the table, the truth hurt more than once but it was so much needed. In tears, Dany asked her sister "I have been horrible to you, sister. I let you down every time you needed me and I only realized how much you were hurting when it was too late. I never wanted to hurt you, Bäahal. Could you forgive me?" to which the princess replied. "We are family. I forgave you a long time ago. I forgive you like you forgive me for what we put each other through." and just like that they rekindled their flame.
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